All Together Dead (Sookie Stackhouse #7)(17)
Author: Charlaine Harris

"I’m sorry, Claudine, and I’ll miss you while I’m in Rhodes," I said. "But I’ve obligated myself to go."

"Going in the train of a vampire," Claudine said dismally. "It’ll mark you as one of their world, for good. You’ll never be an innocent bystander again. Too many creatures will know who you are and where you can be found."

It wasn’t so much what Claudine said as the way she said it that made cold prickles run up my spine and crawl along my scalp. She was right. I had no defense, though I rather thought that I was already into the vamp world too deeply to opt out.

Sitting there in my kitchen with the late afternoon sun slanting through the window, I had one of those illuminations that changes you forever. Amelia was silent upstairs. Bob had come back into the room to sit by his food bowl and stare at Claudine. Claudine herself was gleaming in a beam of sunlight that hit her square in the face. Most people would be showing every unattractive skin flaw. Claudine still looked perfect.

I wasn’t sure I would ever understand Claudine and her thinking about the world, and I still knew frighteningly little about her life; but I felt quite sure that she had devoted herself to my well-being, for whatever reason, and that she was really afraid for me. And yet I knew I was going to Rhodes with the queen, and Eric, and the abjured one, and the rest of the Louisiana contingent.

Was I just curious about what the agenda might be at a vampire summit? Did I want the attention of more undead members of society? Did I want to be known as a fangbanger, one of those humans who simply adored the walking dead? Did some corner of me long for a chance to be near Bill without seeking him out, still trying to make some emotional sense of his betrayal? Or was this about Eric? Unbeknownst to myself, was I in love with the flamboyant Viking who was so handsome, so good at making love, and so political, all at the same time?

This sounded like a promising set of problems for a soap opera season.

"Tune in tomorrow," I muttered. When Claudine looked at me askance, I said, "Claudine, I feel embarrassed to tell you I’m doing something that really doesn’t make much sense in a lot of ways, but I want the money and I’m going to do it. I’ll be back here to see you again. Don’t worry, please."

Amelia clomped back into the room, began making herself some more tea. She was going to float away.

Claudine ignored her. "I’m going to worry," she said simply. "There is trouble coming, my dear friend, and it will fall right on your head."

"But you don’t know how or when?"

She shook her head. "No, I just know it’s coming."

"Look into my eyes," muttered Amelia. "I see a tall, dark man…"

"Shut up," I told her.

She turned her back to us, made a big fuss out of pinching the dead leaves off some of her plants.

Claudine left soon after. For the remainder of her visit, she didn’t recover her normal happy demeanor. She never said another word about my departure.

Chapter 6

ON THE SECOND MORNING AFTER JASON’S WEDDING, I was feeling much more myself. Having a mission helped. I needed to be at Tara’s Togs right after it opened at ten. I had to pick out the clothes Eric said I needed for the summit. I wasn’t due at Merlotte’s until five thirty or so that night, so I had that pleasant feeling of the whole day stretching ahead of me.

"Hey, girl!" Tara said, coming from the back of the shop to greet me. Her part-time assistant, McKenna, glanced at me and resumed moving clothes around. I assumed she was putting misplaced items back into their correct positions; clothing store employees seem to spend a lot of time doing that. McKenna didn’t speak, and unless I was much mistaken, she was trying to avoid talking to me at all. That hurt, since I’d gone to see her in the hospital when she’d had her appendix out two weeks ago, and I’d taken her a little present, too.

"Mr. Northman’s business associate Bobby Burnham called down here to say you needed some clothes for a trip?" Tara said. I nodded, trying to look matter of fact. "Would casual clothes be what you needed? Or suits, something of a business nature?" She gave me an utterly false bright smile, and I knew she was angry with me because she was scared for me. "McKenna, you can take that mail to the post office," Tara told McKenna with an edge to her voice. McKenna scuttled out the back door, the mail stuffed under her arm like a riding crop.

"Tara," I said, "it’s not what you think."

"Sookie, it’s none of my business," she said, trying hard to sound neutral.

"I think it is," I said. "You’re my friend, and I don’t want you thinking I’m just going traveling with a bunch of vampires for fun."

"Then why are you going?" Tara’s face dropped all the false cheer. She was deadly serious.

"I’m getting paid to go with a few of the Louisiana vamps to a big meeting. I’ll act as their, like, human Geiger counter. I’ll tell them if a human’s trying to bullshit them, and I’ll know what the other vamps’ humans are thinking. It’s just for this one time." I couldn’t explain more fully. Tara had been into the world of the vampires more heavily than she needed to be, and she’d almost gotten killed. She wanted nothing more to do with it, and I couldn’t blame her. But she still couldn’t tell me what to do. I’d gone through my own soul searching over this issue, even before Claudine’s lecture, and I wasn’t going to permit anyone else to second-guess me once I’d made up my mind. Getting the clothes was okay. Working for the vamps was okay…as long as I didn’t turn humans over to get killed.

"We’ve been friends for a coon’s age," Tara said quietly. "Through thick and thin. I love you, Sookie, I always will; but this is a real thin time." Tara had had so much disappointment and worry in her life that she simply wasn’t willing to undertake any more. So she was cutting me loose, and she thought she would call JB that night and renew their carnal acquaintance, and she would do that almost in memory of me.

It was a strange way to write my premature epitaph.

"I need an evening dress, a cocktail-type dress, and some nice day clothes," I said, checking my list quite unnecessarily. I wasn’t going to fool with Tara anymore. I was going to have fun, no matter how sour she looked. She’d come around, I told myself.

I was going to enjoy buying clothes. I started off with an evening dress and a cocktail dress. And I got two suits, like business suits (but not really, since I can’t see myself in black pinstripes). And two pants outfits. And hose and knee-highs and a nightgown or two. And a bit of lingerie.

I was swinging between guilt and delight. I spent more of Eric’s money than I absolutely had to, and I wondered what would happen if Eric asked to see the things he’d bought. I’d feel pretty bad then. But it was like I’d been caught up in a buying frenzy, partly out of the sheer delight of it, and partly out of anger at Tara, and partly to deny the fear I was feeling at the prospect of accompanying a group of vampires anywhere.