Fallen Too Far

I broke apart so I could cry out as I began riding him faster and harder. The tenderness inside me was screaming out with the stretching of his entrance but it was a good pain.

"Blaire, oh holy f**k Blaire," he ground out as his hands grabbed my hips and he let himself break free and enjoy the ride. His hands began taking over. He lifted me and slammed me back down onto him with fast and hard thrusts. Every curse and loud moan that escaped him made me wilder. I needed this with him.

The orgasm was building and I knew after a few more thrusts I was going to break apart on top of him. I wanted him to come too. I began rocking on him and letting out the loud cries I had been trying to control. "I’m gonna come," I moaned as the sensation built.

"Fuck baby, so good," he growled and then we both fell over the top together. His body bucked underneath me and then stilled. My name tore from his lips at the same time my body reached its climax.

When the tremors slowed and I could breathe again I wrapped my arms around his neck and collapsed on top of him.

Both his arms held me tightly to him as his breathing slowed. I liked the sweet sex we’d had last night but there was something to be said for f**king. I smiled to myself at the thought and turned my head to kiss his neck.

"Never. Never in all my life," he panted running his hand down my back and cupping my bottom with a gentle squeeze. "That was. God, Blaire, I don’t have words."

Smiling into his neck I knew I’d made my mark on this perfect, wounded, mysterious confusing man.

"I believe the word you are looking for is epic," I said laughing as I leaned back so that I could look at him.

The tenderness in his eyes melted my heart a little more. "The most epic sex ever known to man," he replied and reached out to tuck hair behind my ears. "I’m ruined. You know that right? You’ve ruined me."

I wiggled my hips and I could feel him still inside me. "Hmmm no, I think you might still work."

"God, woman you’re gonna have me hard and ready again. I need to clean you up."

I traced his bottom lip with the pad of my finger. "I won’t bleed again. I did that already."

Rush pulled my finger into his mouth and sucked on it gently before letting it go. "I wasn’t wearing a condom. I’m clean, though. I always wear a condom and I get checked regularly."

I wasn’t sure how to process this. I hadn’t been thinking about a condom.

"I’m sorry. You got naked and my brain kind of checked out. I promise you I’m clean."

I shook my head. "No, it’s okay. I believe you. I didn’t think about it either."

Rush pulled me back against him. "Good because that was f**king unbelievable. I’ve never felt it without a condom. Knowing I was in you and feeling you bare makes me real damn happy. You felt amazing. All hot and wet and so very tight."

I rocked against him. His dirty words in my ear made my ache wake back up. "Mmm," I replied as I felt him grow hard again inside me.

"Are you on any birth control?"

I never had a reason to be. I shook my head.

He groaned and moved my hips off him until he was out of me. "We can’t do that again until you are. But you’ve got me all hard again." He reached between my legs and ran a finger against my swollen clit. "So sexy," he murmured.  I let my head fall back and enjoyed his soft touch.

"Blaire, come take a shower with me," he asked in a strained voice.

"Okay," I said, looking back at him. He helped me up and then led me to his bigger than life bathroom.

"I want you in the shower. What we did out there was the best f**king I’ve ever had in my life. But in here it’s gonna be slower. I’m taking care of you."

Chapter Twenty-One

Leaving Rush in bed this morning had been hard. He’d been sleeping so peacefully I hadn’t wanted to wake him up. I’d refrained from kissing his face before I left. Asleep he seemed so worry free. I didn’t realize how intense and on guard he was until I’d watched him sleep and seen him completely at peace.

Opening the door to the staffroom I was greeted to the smell of fresh donuts and a smiling Jimmy.

"Good morning sunshine," he said cheerily as always.

"That remains to be seen… are you gonna share those donuts or not?"

He held the box out to me. "I bought two extras just for you doll. I knew my blond bombshell was coming to work today and I didn’t want to be empty handed."

I sat down across from him and reached for my donut. "If I thought you’d enjoy it I’d kiss your face," I teased.

Jimmy wiggled his eyebrows, "Who knows, baby? A face like yours can lead a man astray."

Laughing, I took a bite of the fluffy warm goodness. This wasn’t healthy but it was so dang good.

"Eat up because we got us a long ass day ahead. The debutante ball is tonight and we won’t be in the dining room. We’ll all be sent to the ballroom and forced to walk around with trays of food and then serve them all at a sit down dinner."

Debutante ball? What the heck was that? "Is that why there are so many trucks outside with flowers and decorations?"

Jimmy nodded and reached for another chocolate covered donut. "Yep. Happens every year during this week. Crazy rich mommas strut their daughters around and introduce them to society. After tonight, the girls will be considered women and treated as an adult member of the club. They can be on committees and the like. It’s crazy ass bullshit is what it is. Especially since Nan turned twenty-one a few weeks back. That means she gets to be released into mother f**king adulthood."

Nan was a debutante. That was interesting. Her mother wasn’t here. Did this mean she was returning? My heart sped up… I’d have to leave soon. Rush hadn’t told me that anything had changed about my moving out. When I left would he still see me?