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Never Too Hot

Never Too Hot (Hot Shots: Men of Fire #3)(52)
Author: Bella Andre

Isabel’s look of concern intensified into worry. “No. No. And no. Listen to me, you cannot change him. He’s the only one who can do that.”

And that was when Ginger saw the real problem, as clear to her as the blue sky, the sparkling ripples on the water, the happy sounds all around her.

Just as she’d told him again and again, she wasn’t hurting from the way she and Connor had come together the previous night. He hadn’t been nearly as rough as he’d thought and she really was tougher than she looked. The problem wasn’t even that he’d hurt her feelings by choosing to stay downstairs on the couch last night rather than open himself up to her.

No, she was hurting for another reason entirely. And it had just become so painfully obvious that she wondered how she could have gone on this long without seeing it.

The real problem wasn’t the way Connor had treated her. It was the way she’d been treating herself.

She’d ached so badly for him, had wanted so badly to help heal his wounds, that she hadn’t spared a second thought for herself. She’d put Connor first, just like she’d always put her ex-husband first, her parents, her causes.

Only this time it was worse. Because she’d secretly believed that Connor would see all she was doing for him and reward her with his love. Love she wanted more than anything in the world.

“Have I changed at all, Isabel?” she asked now. “Since you first met me?”

“So much. I’ve been so proud of you. Especially since I know firsthand how hard it can be to start over after a divorce. You’ve done a great job of moving on, Ginger.”

“If that’s true then why am I falling into all the same traps? Why am I working so hard to make everyone else happy?”

Why had she told herself she could feed off scraps? That a little affection was better than none at all?

Isabel’s arm came around her. “Oh honey, that’s just human nature. You can’t beat yourself up for it. All you can do is hope that maybe it’ll be easier next time.”

“Is it?” Ginger asked her friend. “Easier next time?”

Isabel snorted. “I’m pretty sure you don’t want to hear the answer.”

“I guess I already know.”

The images were still with Ginger: Andrew looking broken as he’d left Isabel’s house, Isabel more pale and shaken than Ginger had ever thought to find her strong friend.

“If it makes you feel any better,” Isabel said, “I’ve been giving myself the same advice since yesterday when Andrew blindsided me at my house. I’m working like hell right now not to beat myself up for still having all these stupid feelings for a guy I haven’t seen in thirty years. I was so sure it would be different this time. That I could just put up a wall he couldn’t cross. That it wouldn’t hurt so bad just to be near him.”

“I’m sorry that it does,” Ginger told her friend, reaching out to hug Isabel back.

“Me too. Especially since I just agreed to cater his son’s wedding. The very son he got that girl pregnant with the night he cheated on me.”

“Seriously?”

“Seriously.”

Isabel was standing in the paint aisle of the hardware store staring at a dozen different greens that all looked the same when Connor came fast around the corner. For a moment she was stunned by his resemblance to his father, got such a clear picture of what Andrew must have looked like twenty years ago it took her breath away.

Connor was clearly preoccupied, barely looking at her as he said, “Sorry, didn’t see you there.”

He looked tired and beaten down. Pretty much the way Ginger had been all through breakfast and lunch.

She told herself to keep her nose out of their business, but damn it, she cared too much about Ginger to stay quiet. Ginger wasn’t just a friend, she was almost like a daughter.

“Connor.”

He finally realized who she was. “Isabel.”

It wasn’t until then that she thought to wonder if he knew about her and Andrew. But judging by how displeased he looked at seeing her, she guessed he did. She got it that no kid wanted to think of his father having feelings for anyone other than his mother, no matter how old they were.

“How’s work going on Poplar Cove?”

“All right,” he said. “You know how these old camps are.”

She nodded, picked up a paint sample, working to find a tactful way of telling him what he needed to hear.

“Ginger is really important to me.”

A muscle worked in his jaw. “I know she is.”

“Coming here after a bad divorce. Starting over. I know how hard that can be. The lake has been good to her.

This town. These people. Everyone loves her.”

She paused, let him nod, made sure he got what she was saying.

“Ginger is a wonderful person, Connor. She deserves so much more than she asks for.”

He didn’t move, barely blinked, but the flash of torment in his eyes almost made her regret saying these things to him. Because in a heartbeat, Isabel had seen just how much he cared for Ginger.

And she knew that if he did end up hurting her friend, it wouldn’t be because he didn’t have a heart.

It wouldn’t be because he didn’t care about Ginger.

He did.

But Isabel knew too well that sometimes even loving someone wasn’t enough.

The phone was ringing when Connor walked into the cabin and he nearly pulled it off the wall when he answered it.

His brother’s voice came across the landline. “Had to check in, see how things are going with Dad.”

“You couldn’t stop him from coming?”

“There was no stopping him. He was a man on a mission.”

It was the first time they’d talked since Sam’s message from the Forest Service and Connor knew what was coming next.

“So, how’s it going out there?”

“The cabin is coming together.”

“Not the cabin. You. How are you doing?”

He couldn’t lie to his brother.

“Bad.”

Sam’s response was just as short and to the point. “Shit.”

“I’m f**king everything up.”

“No one gives a damn about the cabin. We’ll have the wedding somewhere else.”

“Not Poplar Cove. Ginger.”

“The renter? Are you getting involved with her?”

Connor had to know. “What made Dianna different?”

“Everything.”

Connor couldn’t have asked anyone but his brother, “How did you know?”

“I couldn’t push her away, couldn’t get her out of my head. Every single second, she was with me.”

Sam and Dianna’s relationship had spanned ten years. Not a week, a sledgehammer falling unexpectedly into the center of Connor’s heart.

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