Shades of Twilight
eight, he’d actually had to keep her from following him into the bathroom, and even then she had huddled in the hallway waiting for him. Back then, of course, she had just lost her parents and he had been her only security; the frantic clinging had gradually ceased as she adjusted. But even when she’d been a teenager, she’d always been right there, her homely little face turned up to him like a sunflower to the sun.
But she wasn’t homely now; she had grown into a striking woman with the sort of strong, chiseled bone structure that wouldn’t yield much to age. He’d braced himself to resist constant temptation; he couldn’t take advantage of her heartbreaking vulnerability just to satisfy his lust. Damn it all to hell, though, instead of being vulnerable she was downright remote with him, and most of the time she wasn’t even around. It was as if she actively avoided him, and the realization jolted him deep inside. Was she embarrassed because she’d slept with him? He remembered how closed her expression had been the next morning. Or did she resent it because he was going to inherit Davencourt instead of her?
Lucinda said Roanna had no interest in running Davencourt, but what if she was wrong? Roanna hid so much behind that calm, remote face. Once he’d been able to read her like a book, and now he found himself watching her whenever he could, trying to decipher any flicker of expression that might hint at her feelings. For the most part, though, all he saw was the fatigue that drained her, and the mute patience with which she endured it.
If he’d realized how much trouble this damn party would be for her, he never would have agreed to it. If she was still working on it when he got inside, he was going to put his foot down. Her face had been drawn and wan, and dark circles lay under her eyes, evidence that she hadn’t been sleeping. Insomnia was one thing; staying awake at night and working incessantly during the day was something else. She needed to do something she enjoyed, and he thought a long, leisurely ride was just the ticket. Not only did she love riding, but the physical exercise might force her body into sleep that night. He was getting antsy himself-, he’d gotten accustomed to spending long hours in the saddle almost every day, and he missed the exercise as well as the soothing company of the horses.
He entered the kitchen and smiled at Tansy, who was humming happily as she meandered around the kitchen, never getting in a hurry or seeming to have any design in her movements, but nevertheless putting together huge, scrumptious meals. Tansy hadn’t changed much in all the years he’d known her, he thought. She had to be in her sixties, but her hair was still the same salt and pepper it had been since he’d come to live at Davencourt. She was short and plump, and her kindhearted nature shone out of her blue eyes.
"Lemon icebox pie for dessert tonight," she said, grinning, knowing that it was his favorite.
"Be sure you save enough room for it."
"I’ll make a point of it." Tansy’s icebox pie was so good he could make a meal of it by itself.
"Do you know where Roanna is?"
"Sure do. Bessie was just here, and she said Miss Roanna’s asleep in the study. I’m not surprised, I’ll say that. You could tell just by looking at the poor child that the last few nights have been bad, even worse than usual."
She was asleep. Relief warred with disappointment, because he’d been looking forward to that ride with her.
"I won’t disturb her," he promised.
"Is Lucinda awake from her nap yet?"
"I imagine so, but she hasn’t come downstairs." Tansy sadly shook her head.
"Time’s weighing heavy on Miss Lucinda. You can always tell when old folks start going, because they stop eating food they used to love. It’s nature’s way of winding down, I guess. My mama, rest her soul, loved kraut and wienies better’n anything, but a few months before she passed on she said they just didn’t taste good no more, and she wouldn’t eat ’em."
Lucinda’s all-time favorite food was okra. She loved it fried, boiled, pickled, any way it could be prepared. "Is Lucinda still eating her okra?" he asked quietly.
Tansy shook her head, her eyes sad.
"Said it don’t have much taste this year."
Webb left the kitchen and walked silently down the hall. He turned the corner and stopped when he saw Corliss with her back to him, opening the study door and peeking inside. He knew immediately what she was about to do; the little bitch was going to slam the door and awaken Roanna. Fury shot through him, and he was already moving as she stepped back and opened the door wide, as wide as her arm would allow. He saw the muscles in her forearm tighten as she prepared to slam the door with all her strength, and then he was on her, his steely fingers biting into the nape of her neck. She gave a stifled little squeak and froze.
Webb eased the door shut, then dragged her away from the study, still holding her neck in a tight grip. He hauled her head around so that she was looking at him. He’d seldom in his life been more angry, and he wanted to shake her as if she were a rag. On the scale of things, waking Roanna from a nap was nothing more than petty and spiteful, no matter how desperately she needed the sleep. But he didn’t give a damn about the scale of things, because Roanna did need that nap, and the spitefulness angered him all the more because it was so senseless. Corliss wouldn’t accomplish or gain a damn thing by disturbing Roanna; she was simply a bitch, and he wasn’t going to put up with it.
Her face was a picture of alarm as she stared up at him, still with her neck arched back in an uncomfortable position. Her blue eyes were rounded with startlement at being caught when she had thought herself alone, but already a sly look was creeping into them as she began trying to figure out a way to slither out of this predicament.