Sweet Soul

Mamma sniffed, and glancing away, finally looked back to me. “Nothing, mia luna.”

I lifted further, and pressed my hand on Mamma’s face. Her cheeks were all wet. “But you’re crying. You don’t cry for nothing.”

Mamma’s face fell, and she crushed me to her chest. “I was praying, mia luna,” she said after minutes of saying nothing. “I was praying to the Lord, to Mother Mary, to help us and I got teary eyed. Because I found something out today that has upset me, and even made me a little bit scared.”

“What made you upset and scared?” I asked, feeling my stomach twist and turn.

Mamma smiled against my head and stroked through my hair. “Nothing for you to worry about, mia luna. This is my burden, not yours. You’re my baby, my big seven year old brave boy.”

My stomach rolled again and my heart raced real fast. She didn’t sound okay. Then I noticed the rosary again, swinging in her hand.

Moving my hand, I ran my fingers over the brown beads. “Why do you hold these, Mamma? You always have them with you. Right now, you’re clutching them real tight.”

Mamma sighed and brought the rosary to her chest. “I use them to pray to Mother Mary. She gives me strength, mia luna. I pray to her for strength.” Mamma’s voice cracked again and I tried to think hard. I tried to think why she needed strength.

Blinking, a thought came to me and I asked, “Is it Austin and Axel? Do you pray for them? Because of the Heighters?”

Mamma sighed and ran her finger down my cheek. “Always, mia luna. I always pray for them. For what they do each night for that gang.”

I shook my head, knowing there was something else. “But what—”

“Shh,” Mamma whispered. She then held up the rosary and placed it in my hand. She curled her hand around mine and pressed the beads into my palm. “Levi, you take these now. I want you to have these. I want you to keep them for strength. For the strength you will need someday soon.”

I frowned and shook my head. “No, Mamma. They’re yours. I’m strong with you around. I don’t need these.”

Mamma’s head dropped, and she took a deep breath.

“Mamma?” I questioned. She was acting real strange.

Mamma wiped her cheeks and a sad smile spread on her lips. “Va bene, mia luna. I’ll keep them for now. Grazie. Always thinking of your mamma. But one day, when… when I’m not here, you keep these with you. I want you to remember that these are yours. You are not your brothers, Levi. You are kind and shy, not hard and boisterous, ready to fight the world. You are my quiet baby boy. My sweet, sweet soul.”

“I’m not weak,” I pushed, hating that I wasn’t like my brothers. Axel and Austin were strong and tough. I wanted to be just like them.

Mamma pressed a kiss to my forehead. “Never, Levi. You are a Carillo boy after all. But you are different from Austin and Axel. They are alike in so many ways—hot headed and tough, hard on the outside until they let you in. You are the timid one, the gentle brother—inside and out. You are the one to carry his heart on his sleeve. You are the one who watches silently from afar and loves with all his soul.” Mamma huffed, and said, “Whoever you end up with, my son, whoever claims your heart, will be a very special girl indeed.” Her finger stroked my cheek. “So much love, mia luna. You will love with your whole being, and it will be forever. You could not love in any other way.”

I frowned at her sad voice. “And you’ll meet her, Mamma. You’ll love her too. Yeah? You will love the one I marry too.”

Mamma looked away, and I saw her eyes fill with tears again. She blinked real fast. When she looked at me, she placed both hands on my face and stared into my eyes. “Ti voglio bene, Levi. It is late. It is time to sleep now.”

I lay down on the pillow next to Mamma, watching the lightning bugs jump around in the jar on the side table, giving off light. I closed my eyes when I couldn’t keep them open any longer, but I couldn’t stop thinking of what Mamma had said. What was wrong? What had made her so sad?

I knew Mamma thought I was asleep, because I heard her start to cry. I held my breath, when suddenly she kissed my cheek, and whispered, “I want the world for you, mia luna. And I pray that the girl who claims your tender heart is just as sweet as you. Someone to care for your fragile soul. Someone to cherish the gentle gift that you are, when I am no longer here to do so…”

As the thunder peeled again, it shook me from my past. I looked up to the ceiling. With a hoarse whisper and blurred eyes, I echoed my mamma’s words: “It’s only the Roman Gods showing the world they’re still here.”

I held the angel’s hand just as tightly as I could.

Just for a little bit longer.

Chapter One

Levi

University of Washington, Seattle

“Grab a drink, then get back to the field for sprints!”

Coach shouted from the center of the field, and I ran to the sideline, grabbing a Powerade. My friends, Jake and Ashton, ran beside me. As I finished the bottle, Ashton nudged my side. “Fuck, Alabama. That chick can’t stop staring at you, again.”

I lifted my head to the tunnel, only to see a group of cheerleaders stood in the entryway, the redhead staring at me… again. Her, the same redhead that always watched me training. The one that always tried to talk to me. The cheerleader I never ever talked back to.

“Go ask her out. She’s creaming for you, Carillo. It’s the fucking accent. Chicks love that southern drawl shit. I’m so fucking pissed that I was born in Cali. I’d clean up if I said ‘y’all’ and ‘fixin’ every other word,” Jake complained.

“And the Italian thing. He speaks fucking Italian, fluently.” Ashton shook his head and gripped my arm. “Use your powers, Alabama. For the sake of jocks everywhere, use the fucking pussy-magnet powers you’ve been granted!” Ashton and Jake cracked up laughing, and Ashton dropped his hand.

Throwing my empty bottle to the ground, my stomach rolled at just the thought of speaking to the cheerleader. I didn’t even know her damn name. Finally, I shook my head. “Nah. I’m good,” I replied, trying to dodge the whole damn thing.

I turned to run back to centerfield, when Ashton and Jake moved to stand in my path, all laughter forgotten. Ashton was the Quarterback for the Washington Huskies, and Jake was the Running Back. They were both glaring at me. I said nothing because we exchanged this crap all the time. Like every day.