Tell No One

But not the last.

19

I stayed in front of that damn computer and started drinking pretty heavily. I tried logging on to the site a dozen different ways. I used Explorer and then I used Netscape. I cleared my cache and reloaded the pages and signed off my provider and signed back on again.

It didn’t matter. I still got the error message.

At ten o’clock, Shauna headed back into the den. Her cheeks were glowing from drink. Mine too, I imagined. “No luck?”

“Go home,” I said.

She nodded. “Yeah, I think I’d better.”

The limousine was there in five minutes. Shauna wobbled to the curb, fairly wasted on bourbon and Rolling Rock. Me too.

Shauna opened the door and turned back to me. “Were you ever tempted to cheat? I mean, when you two were married.”

“No,” I said.

Shauna shook her head, disappointed. “You know nothing about how to mess up your life.”

I kissed her good-bye and went back inside. I continued to gaze at the screen as though it were something holy. Nothing changed.

Chloe slowly approached a few minutes later. She nudged my hand with her wet nose. Through her forest of hair, our eyes met and I swear that Chloe understood what I was feeling. I’m not one of those who give human characteristics to dogs—for one thing, I think that it might demean them—but I do believe they have a base understanding of what their anthropological counterparts are feeling. They say that dogs can smell fear. Is it such a stretch to believe that they also smell joy or anger or sadness?

I smiled down at Chloe and petted her head. She put a paw on my arm in a comforting gesture. “You want to go for a walk, girl?” I said.

Chloe’s reply was to bound about like a circus freak on speed. Like I told you before, it’s the little things.

The night air tingled in my lungs. I tried to concentrate on Chloe—her frolicking step, her wagging tail—but I was, well, crestfallen. Crestfallen. That is not a word I use very often. But I thought it fit.

I hadn’t fully bought Shauna’s too-neat digital-trick hypothesis. Yes, someone could manipulate a photograph and make it part of a video. And yes, someone could have known about kiss time. And yes, someone could have even made the lips whisper “I’m sorry.” And yes, my hunger probably helped make the illusion real and made me susceptible to such trickery.

And the biggest yes: Shauna’s hypothesis made a hell of a lot more sense than a return from the grave.

But there were two things that overrode a lot of that. First off, I’m not one for flights of fancy. I’m frighteningly boring and more grounded than most. Second, the hunger could have clouded my reasoning, and digital photography could do a lot of things.

But not those eyes …

Her eyes. Elizabeth’s eyes. There was no way, I thought, that they could be old photographs manipulated into a digital video. Those eyes belonged to my wife. Was my rational mind sure of it? No, of course not. I’m not a fool. But between what I saw and all the questions I’d raised, I had semi-dismissed Shauna’s video demonstration. I had come home still believing that I was to receive a message from Elizabeth.

Now I didn’t know what to think. The booze was probably helping in that respect.

Chloe stopped to do some prolonged sniffing. I waited under a streetlight and stared at my elongated shadow.

Kiss time.

Chloe barked at a movement in the bush. A squirrel sprinted across the street. Chloe growled and feigned a chase. The squirrel stopped and turned back toward us. Chloe barked a boy-you’re-lucky-I’m-on-a-leash sound. She didn’t mean it. Chloe was a pure thoroughbred wimp.

Kiss time.

I tilted my head the way Chloe does when she hears a strange sound. I thought again about what I had seen yesterday on my computer—and I thought about the pains someone had gone through to keep this whole thing secret. The unsigned email telling me to click the hyperlink at “kiss time.” The second email setting up a new account in my name.

They’re watching.…

Someone was working hard to keep these communications under wraps.

Kiss time …

If someone—okay, if Elizabeth—had simply wanted to give me a message, why hadn’t she just called or written it in an email? Why make me jump through all these hoops?

The answer was obvious: secrecy. Someone—I won’t say Elizabeth again—wanted to keep it all a secret.

And if you have a secret, it naturally follows that you have someone you want to keep it secret from. And maybe that someone is watching or searching or trying to find you. Either that or you’re paranoid. Normally I’d side with paranoid but …

They’re watching.…

What did that mean exactly? Who was watching? The feds? And if the feds were behind the emails in the first place, why would they warn me that way? The feds wanted me to act.

Kiss time …

I froze. Chloe’s head snapped in my direction.

Oh my God, how could I have been so stupid?

They hadn’t bothered to use the duct tape.

Rebecca Schayes lay upon the table now, whimpering like a dying dog on the side of the road. Sometimes, she uttered words, two or even three at a time, but they never formed a coherent chain. She was too far gone to cry anymore. The begging had stopped. Her eyes were still wide and uncomprehending; they saw nothing now. Her mind had shattered mid-scream fifteen minutes ago.

Amazingly, Wu had left no marks. No marks, but she looked twenty years older.

Rebecca Schayes had known nothing. Dr. Beck had visited her because of an old car accident that wasn’t really a car accident. There were pictures too. Beck had assumed she had taken them. She hadn’t.

The creeping feeling in his stomach—the one that had started as a mere tickle when Larry Gandle first heard about the bodies being found at the lake—kept growing. Something had gone wrong that night. That much was certain. But now Larry Gandle feared that maybe everything had gone wrong.

It was time to flush out the truth.

He had checked with his surveillance man. Beck was taking his dog for a walk. Alone. In light of the evidence Wu would plant, that would be a terrible alibi. The feds would shred it for laughs.

Larry Gandle approached the table. Rebecca Schayes looked up and made an unearthly noise, a cross between a high-pitched groan and a wounded laugh.

He pressed the gun against her forehead. She made that sound again. He fired twice and all the world fell silent.

I started heading back to the house, but I thought about the warning.

They’re watching.