Unconditional Love (Journey of Love #1)(29)
Author: Kelly Elliott

My heart was slamming in my chest as he lifted me up and set my ass on the edge of the table. He quickly unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans.

My breathing became erratic as his erection sprung free.

He pulled me closer to him as he slammed his dick inside of me. I let out a small scream. It burned like a son of a bitch and Lark usually asked if I was okay but the way he relentlessly began moving in and out of me was like he couldn’t fuck me fast and hard enough. I threw my head back and said, “Oh God.”

“Does that feel good, baby?” Lark asked as he gripped my hips harder. “You like me fucking you hard and fast, sweetheart?”

“Oh God yes.”

Then he stopped moving and quickly pulled out of me. I snapped my head up and looked at him. His eyes were filled with a look I’d never seen before. “What’s wrong?” I asked as he took a few steps back and away from me. I had to shake my head to clear my vision. Were his eyes filling with…tears?

“Lark?”

“I um…I need a minute.” He pulled his pants up and then walked away from me. I quickly jumped off the table and just stood there. What just happened? Did I do or say something to him?

I heard his bedroom door shut and I instantly felt like I wanted to cry. He walked away from me. He just left me here alone not knowing what in the world I just did. I reached down for my panties and quickly put them back on. I picked up my purse I must have dropped to the floor when we walked in and walked into the living room and looked around. I turned and looked down the hallway.

Should I go to his bedroom and ask him what was wrong? I decided to head over to the library. I walked in and made my way over to the sofa. I sat down and stared out at the lights. It was an amazing view and one that should have me looking at it in amazement, but all I could do was wonder what in the hell I did wrong.

I feel so tired all of a sudden. I wanted to get up and leave but I couldn’t move.

I felt the tear move down my cheek as I reached up and wiped it away. There was a blanket lying on the ottoman. I reached for it and pulled it over me as I curled up on the cold leather sectional and cried myself to sleep.

The second I realized I had called Azurdee sweetheart, I panicked. Walking away from her like that was the biggest dick move I’d ever done in my life.

I sat there on my bed and just stared out over the night sky of Austin. I couldn’t believe I let all of the emotions build up like I did and then just let it go like that.

“Fuck,” I whispered. I was almost positive I had to have hurt her with the way I just started fucking the shit out of her.

With running into Sherry and then Jason at the club, I was so wound up it was unreal. If Azurdee ever found out about Sherry and what I did, I knew she would leave me.

I can’t lose her. I won’t lose her. Not now. Not when I finally feel like a part of me is coming back to life.

I wasn’t sure how long I sat there thinking before I glanced over at the clock. It was two in the morning.

Azurdee.

I jumped up and went to the first guest room. I opened the door and it was empty. I opened up the door to the game room only to find it empty. The other guest bedroom was empty as well. I walked past the library and looked through the door that was open. The library was also empty. I headed into the living room only to find it empty and silent.

Where in the fuck was she? I began to have a feeling take over my body that hadn’t been there since the day Nikki died.

Fear.

She left. She left me. I sat there and placed my head into my hands and tried to calm my breathing down.

Well, what in the hell did you expect, you dick? You pulled out of her and walked away with out so much as an explanation.

I looked to my right and saw her purse sitting on the top of the sofa. I jumped up. She wouldn’t have left without her purse. I quickly made my way back to the only room that had a door open. The library. I walked in and immediately could hear the sound of her breathing. I quickly made my way around the sofa and saw her curled up under a blanket sleeping. I about dropped to my knees when I saw her. She had a tissue clutched in her hand and I knew she had been crying.

Oh God. I hurt her. The only person in this entire world I didn’t want to hurt and I’d hurt her.

I got down on my knees and pushed her hair away from her face and gently kissed the corner of her lips. She slowly opened her eyes and gave me a weak smile. I tried to smile back but my heart was hurting so bad I could hardly breathe.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered. I pulled back some and looked at her.

“For what?”

She slowly sat up and pulled her legs in. “I’m not sure what I did wrong, but whatever it was, I’m sorry.”

I sat back and felt the tears trying to build in my eyes. She thinks it was her?

I slowly shook my head and pulled her down onto the floor with me. I ran my hands down the sides of her face and placed my right hand behind her neck and pulled her lips to mine. I kissed her like I was never going to kiss her again.

I pulled back slightly as she whispered, “Lark.”

I stood up and helped her up. I picked her up and carried her back to my room. As I gently laid her down onto my bed, I looked into her eyes.

“Azurdee, I’ve never felt like this before. The feelings that I have for you are so powerful and they confuse the hell out of me. The last thing I’d ever want to do is hurt you.”

She swallowed hard and said, “I don’t ever want to hurt you either, Lark.”

I closed my eyes and opened them again as I looked into her beautiful eyes. “I called you sweetheart. I always call girls sweetheart because using their names always made it too personal. I don’t ever want you to think I’m just fucking you like some random girl I’ve picked up. You…you mean too much to me. You’re not some random girl, Azurdee…I…”

I almost told her I loved her but I stopped myself. I knew I was quickly falling for her but I was not ready to admit that I loved her.

Her eyes moved all over my face, like she was trying to read me. “Is that why you call me mi amor?”

I nodded my head. “Yes,” I whispered.

She got up on her knees and placed her hands on the sides of my face. She looked directly into my eyes. “I know you don’t think of me like that. I see it in your eyes and I feel it in your touch. Please talk to me, Lark. I can’t read what your mind is thinking. This is all new to me too, these feelings. They excite me and scare me at the same time too. I’ve never had anyone effect me like you do. I’m totally falling for you but I would never want to push you. Ever. Please promise me you will always talk to me about things.”