Undead and Unreturnable
"Where-where are you going?"
"Out," he replied.
That much was obvious; he was wearing his black wool greatcoat and his Kenneth Cole shoes, which were shined to a high gloss. He was tapping his black leather gloves impatiently into his palm while he politely waited for me to Get On With It.
"Out-how come?"
"I need to feed, Elizabeth," he said simply.
I almost reeled at the implications of that. Since we'd been together, we sort of had an unwritten rule about feeding... we only did each other.
That was the trouble with unwritten rules. Anybody could rewrite them... or ignore them.
"But... don't you want to... with me?" I couldn't believe I was asking this; me, the one who was totally squicked out by blood-sharing. But the thought of him finding some pretty girl... dazzling her... taking from her... and she'd fall in love with him of course... and then what would he do? Keep her?
It wasn't like he hadn't done it before. Hell, he used to have a harem of girls who loooooooved it when he drank from them. He gave them all tons of money and sent them on their way when he moved in, and that was that. Nice and neat.
Except now...
His glove-tapping sped up. "I had assumed, after what happened earlier, that such things were off limits. To both of us."
"What?"
"We just had a fight, that's all, just a stupid fight. It's not the end of everything. And frankly, I don't want you going out in the cold and biting some other woman, so there!"
"Another 'so there.' You must feel quite strongly about the situation."
"Well, you freaked out when Jon, who I have no intention of biting or boning, moved in. Now you're off to the races, and you're all surprised that I have a problem with it?"
His mouth tightened; it look more like a scar than lips I had come to know well. "That is hardly the same thing."
"Wrong, suck-o! It's exactly the same thing."
"Very well." In a flash-I could see what happened only if I replayed it in my head-he dropped his gloves, kicked out of his shoes, and dragged me up the stairs. In the time it took me to realize he had dropped his gloves, he had kicked my (our) bedroom door shut, jerked my head to one side, and sank his fangs into me.
I screamed, shocked to my toes at what he had done-no, how he had done it. I tried to get free, but he had one hand across my shoulders and the other hand was forcing my chin to the side, giving him easy access to my jugular. Wriggling free was like trying to get free of a tree that had planted itself around me.
"Stop it, Eric, stop it, please stop it," I begged, and hated myself for begging.
Yes stop what are you doing why are you hurting her you'll have your pride and that's all you'll have so stop it stop it STOP IT!
I knew it was coming. He knew it was coming. And he stood still for it. Penance? I didn't give a fuck. I slapped him so hard he staggered back, bounced off the wall, and lay on the floor like a stunned cockroach.
I stood over him, saw his fangs were still out, and slapped a hand over the bite on my neck.
"I said I was sorry, okay?" I hated the way my voice shook. Why hadn't I seen that coming? Just how dumb was I? "I said it. And I'm done saying it. So you're either gonna get over it, or you won't. Once you decide that, move in here or don't. And I mean move in, none of this showing up at night for blood and sex and then leaving. But enough of this sulking and pissing and moaning, okay? Believe it or not, I've got bigger problems than your bruised ego. Now get the fuck out. Here, I'll help you."
I bent down, meaning to pick him up and throw him out the window-I was pretty sure I was strong enough to do it, and was dying to find out. I had also counted on Eric's weird contrite mood, which didn't last very long, as I found out when he yanked me down on top of him.
"I guess you didn't hear my speech," I said through gritted teeth. "I guess I gotta go through the whole thing again."
"I heard it. What are your bigger problems?"
"What is this, a quiz show? Undead Wheel of Fortune?"
"You said 'believe it or not, I've got bigger problems than your bruised ego.'" His eyes were about two inches from my own. I could smell my blood. I hated myself for wanting him to take another bite. "I was wondering what they were."
"After the stunt you just pulled? I'm not telling you a fucking thing, pal!"
"Because I am a king who does not 'noe' the queen's ways," he said quietly.
"It's only a matter of time," he said in a monotone that scared me to death. "If you wish, you may throw me out the window now."
"Sinclair!" I slapped him across the face, a sort of "wake up, you're on fire!" smack, but he didn't say anything. "Dude, you have got to pull yourself together!" I really need you now. More than I ever did, so please, please get it together, I'm sorry, you're sorry, everybody's sorry, can we please be the way we were a week ago?
"On the contrary, I have finally seen things for exactly what they are. It's... distressing."
"Eric, come on. It's been a rotten day, and you already scared the shit out of me once."
"Oh, that," he said absently. "I apologize. I was hungry, and you were annoying. It won't happen again."
Don't say that! It wasn't what you did, it was how you did it, please don't say that!
"I'll go," he said quietly, "but before I do, I'd like to remind you that it's very likely you could have a living baby with a living man. I know how fond you are of Baby Jon, and I'm certain you could have one of your own once you come to your senses and jettison me from your life."
"But-I could? But-but I don't want-"
Oblivious to my massive confusion, he sat up and gently picked me up off him, the way you shoo a ladybug off your hand when you're going inside, stood, placed me on the bed, turned, and left.