Destiny Rising (Page 32)

Damon’s eyes glistened again in the flashlight’s glow. She thought for a moment that he was going to speak, but he only stared at her, his face hard and defiant.

There wasn’t anything left to say, really. "Good-bye, Damon," Elena said, and backed away a few paces before turning to find her way out of the forest.

There was a huge, hard mass of sobs building in her chest and she needed to get home before it overwhelmed her. If she started to cry now, she might never stop.

Chapter 15

Dear Diary,

I can’t stop worrying about Damon.

Meredith and Bonnie have gone to the mountains in pursuit of the blessed white ash tree, and our room is too quiet. When I’m alone in here, the empty space fills up with thoughts of how angry and distant Damon seemed when I found him in the woods last night. His aura was so dark that it frightened me.

I haven’t told Stefan yet about my Power leading me to Damon. I’m going to tell him, though, as soon as we’re alone – I’ve learned my lesson at last about letting secrets come between us.

But Stefan’s been so busy. He’s pulling us all together: sparring with Meredith, researching with Alaric, and now that Zander’s gone to the mountains with them and Bonnie, Stefan’s been working with the Pack, too. He’s determined to protect me from Klaus, to protect us all.

Wherever Klaus is, his plan is working – I’m always on edge now. I know he wants me to be afraid; he even told me so – but I can’t stop myself from jumping at every shadow. Every day I get more frightened, and angrier at myself: I don’t want to feel the way Klaus intends me to. But when I’m with Stefan, we can slide into our private world. Despite the danger that hovers near us, it’s safe there. In Stefan’s arms, I feel like maybe we can defeat Klaus. Sometimes I believe we can do anything, together. We can save ourselves, and save Damon, too, even if he doesn’t want to be saved.

A knock came at the door of Elena’s room, and she slipped her journal back under her mattress and ran to let Stefan in. He’d been with the Pack most of the day, since Zander and the others had left, and how much she’d missed him sank in as soon as she finally saw him.

His curly dark hair was hanging over his forehead and he had a streak of dried mud over one eye. "What’s this?" Elena asked, brushing a finger across it.

Stefan grimaced. "Apparently being accepted by a werewolf Pack means they try to knock you down a lot," he told her. "Shay pushed me into a bush."

Elena tried to keep a straight face, but she couldn’t help giggling at the mental image, and Stefan’s face lightened, too, the weary lines around his mouth disappearing.

"I think she’s mad about Zander leaving town with Bonnie," Elena told him, and reached past him to close the door.

As soon as the door was shut, Stefan pulled her against him. He drew back Elena’s hair and kissed her softly on the throat, just above her pulse point. She arched back, leaning into him as he wrapped his arms around her waist.

"Did you work the patrol routes out with the Pack in between wrestling matches?" she asked him. "Can we manage without the others until they get back?"

"Mmhm, I think so," Stefan answered, gently tracing her cheek with one finger, his eyes intent on her face. "I just wish that we had some idea where Klaus was," he went on, his voice growing somber. "He could be anywhere, ready to strike."

"I know." Elena shivered. "I feel like there’s this black cloud hanging over us all the time. I just wish I could figure out all my Guardian Powers. If I’m going to have real Power, why won’t they let me have it now? We’re all in danger, and it’s so frustrating knowing that I ought to be able to protect everyone, but I can’t."

"What about the evil you sensed in the woods yesterday?" Stefan asked. "Have you felt it since?"

Elena hesitated. Now was her chance. She’d promised herself she would tell Stefan what had happened as soon as they had a moment alone. But she didn’t want to hurt him, didn’t want to tell him how angry and distant his brother seemed. "I felt it again last night," she said finally, "but I don’t feel it now."

"You did?" Stefan asked. "Did you get more of an idea where it might be coming from?" When Elena still hesitated, he gently tipped her face up to look at him. "Elena, this is important. These feelings could be our first real clue as to where Klaus is. Is there something you’re not telling me?"

Elena felt herself flinch, but Stefan just waited patiently, his mouth soft and serious. "What is it, love?" he asked.

"I followed it into the woods late last night," she told him, nervously fiddling with the bracelet on her arm. "I, um, I found the source." With the feeling of jumping off a cliff, she told him, "It wasn’t Klaus, or the Vitale vampires. It was Damon."

"But you were sensing evil," Stefan said, sounding confused.

"Yeah." Elena sighed. "Maybe not entirely evil. Damon’s not, I know that. But he’s not doing well. I don’t think that girl we found is the only one he’s attacked. His aura was . . . violent. Angry."

Stefan’s shoulders slumped, and he leaned against her desk. "I know," he said. "I told you what he was like when I tried to talk to him. I think we need to give him some space. You can’t push Damon. He’s just going to do exactly what he wants, especially if you try to control him."

"There must be something we can do," Elena said. Her voice sounded scratchy to her own ears, rough with misery.

Crossing the space between them in one step, Stefan took her hand and looked down at her, his eyes dark and troubled. "It’s never going to be just us, is it?" he said sadly. "Damon will always be standing between us, even when he’s not here."