Ill Wind (Page 16)

I didn't answer. I saw the blooming of anger in her cool gray eyes, and then there was a wind-torn shout from the ruins of Bad Bob's house, and Ulrike staggered out.

“He's dead!” she screamed.

Cold gray eyes snapped back to me and narrowed. The grip on my arm was as tight as a vise. “You killed him?” she asked, and didn't wait for the answer. “You killed him!”

She shoved me backwards. I felt energy gathering around her, phasing in blacks and reds. No, I couldn't fight her. Couldn't fight anyone.

I couldn't control this thing inside me, and it wanted to fight.

I reached out and physically shoved her, and ran like the Demon itself was after me.

Miraculously, Delilah was still untouched, up on the road. I jumped in, started her up, and hit the gas, spinning tires and leaving a scream behind as Ulrike and Janice pelted out after me, both yelling.

I had killed Bad Bob. Bad Bob was a legend, and I was the one who'd called the storm. The Wardens wouldn't listen to what I had to say; if they could sense this thing inside me, they'd cut me apart to destroy it.

I had to get rid of it. Bad Bob had passed it to me. The idea of passing it on made me sick. Everything I'd ever read about Demon Marks had the same grim message attached: no way to get it out of you once it was in, except by giving it to some other poor bastard, the way Bad Bob had given it to me. God, no.

I can't afford to put my Djinn out of commission with this thing, he'd said.

I could give it to a Djinn. Only I didn't have one, did I? Bad Bob's Djinn was gone. That meant I had to find one.

It all came together in a brilliant flash in my head.

Lewis. I could get one from Lewis.

It was dead silent in the Land Rover when I finished. David wasn't looking at me. He wasn't looking anywhere, exactly, just staring straight ahead. I couldn't tell what he was thinking.

“Now you know,” I said. “You know what you're risking just being around me. Because I swear to God, David, I can't have this thing get loose again the way it did on the beach. I'll kill myself first.”

“No!” He lunged at me, and I almost ran the truck off the road. He held up his hands, more to stop himself than to reassure me. “You can't. Listen to me, you cannot die with this thing in you.”

“Well, I can't let it just destroy everything, either! I have to control it, or get rid of it. Or die.”

David sucked down a deep breath. “If you die with the Mark, the Demon will tear itself from your body, and it will walk the aetheric. If that happens, the destruction you saw before will be nothing next to what it can accomplish in its aetheric form. It will take more power than all of you have to stop it then.”

“Well, I'm not just passing it on to somebody like the goddamn herpes virus.” He was watching me with that creepy intensity again. “What?”

“Give it to me,” he said. “Say the words, bind me, and give it to me. You can. You have to.”

“No!” The idea gave me chills. Worse than chills. I had no idea what the Demon Mark would do to a Djinn, but I had no doubt that if the Mark fed off power, it would find an all-you-can-eat smorgas-board inside a Djinn.

“It can't overcome me,” he said. “It'll be trapped inside of me, forever.”

“It'll destroy you!”

“No worse than it will you, in time,” he said. “I can be contained. Once I'm sealed inside a bottle and put back in the vault, I'm no danger to anyone. You-“

“No!” I shouted, and slammed my hands on the steering wheel like I wanted to beat sense into him. “No, dammit, I said no!”

David was so very reasonable, so convincing. “I'm what you were looking for. I'm a Djinn, Joanne. I'm your way out.”

I felt tears burning in my eyes, couldn't get my breath around the lump of distress in my throat. God, no. Yes, it was what I wanted, and I couldn't do it. Couldn't. There had to be something else, some other way. . . .

“I'll find Lewis,” I whispered. My head was pounding from the force of my misery. I wanted to cry, or scream, or just whimper. “He'll know what to do.”

“Why?” David's voice was so soft, so reasonable.

I felt a surge of absolute panic, because I realized … realized I didn't know. Why would he know any better than I did? Lewis was more powerful, all right- more powerful than anybody. That didn't mean he could save me, except by presenting me with the same choice I had right now. Destroying someone else. A Djinn, maybe, but in every way that mattered, a real person.

“I'm so tired-” It came out of me in a rush, uncontrolled. “I can't think about it. Not now.”

“You have to,” David whispered. “Let's just get this over with.”

The car lurched, sputtered, and coasted to a stop. Dead.

“No,” I whispered. “I won't let you . . . take it…” I'd fight him with my last breath, if I had to. I wouldn't be the cause of his destruction. If there was any right thing left in my life . . .

The lights flickered and died, and in the ghostly whisper of the fan spinning down, I felt David reach across and draw his hand gently across my forehead.

“Then rest,” he said.

I woke up in the passenger seat, belted firmly in place, cramped in places I hadn't known I had muscles. The clock made no sense. My mouth tasted like the bottom of a fish tank, and I needed to pee so badly, it hurt.

“What . . . .” I mumbled. David was driving. “Thought you couldn't drive.”

“I lied,” he said. “Djinn do that.”

I muttered something about his mother under my breath-did Djinn have mothers?-and squinted at the clock again.

“Wait a minute,” I said. “I've been asleep for only thirty minutes?”

He didn't answer.

“Oh. Twelve and a half hours.”

“We're an hour outside Tulsa,” he said. “We should be nearing Oklahoma City.”

There was a brilliant blaze of light on the horizon, like frozen gold smoke against the cloudy sky. Still light rain falling, but when I checked Oversight, I found everything even and steady. No storms chasing me, for a change.

“Let's stop,” I said.

David glanced aside at me. “Where?”

“Anywhere with a bathroom.”

“I'll find something.”

I nodded and ran my hands through my hair. That didn't cut it. I hunted around in Marion's glove compartment, came up with a brush, and attacked the tangles in my hair until it was shiny and smooth. Nothing much I could do about my generally gritty condition, but Marion had also left behind some nice wintergreen gum that took care of evening breath. I was starting to feel caffeine deprived, but just about the time I thought about complaining, a sign appeared in the distance: loves. The billboard text underneath Said GAS-FOOD-BATHROOMS.

“Miracles provided,” David said. I froze for a second, then remembered to breathe. Surely he didn't know that was Bad Bob's tag line. Surely.

At exactly 9 p.m. we pulled into a parking lot big enough to hold at least thirty or forty long-haul rigs; it was a little more than half full. Oklahoma was having a damp spring, it seemed; the clouds overhead were inoffensive nimbus, spitting light rain, and we hurried inside to a warm, well-lit vestibule. On one side was a convenience store, on the other, a traditional sit-down diner; straight ahead was the sign for bathrooms. I left David to his own amusements and headed for the relief station. On the way, I ran across a gleaming bank of pay phones, and I remembered something I'd forgotten to do.

Star. I'd meant to call Star and tell her I was coming.

I picked up the handset and thought about it for a while, hung up, then finally completed the call. She wasn't there, but her answering machine took my message. Coming into town tonight or tomorrow. See you soon.

I hoped I would, anyway. I was feeling desperately alone. I wanted to count on David, but I was such a danger to him. … It was like traveling with someone bent on suicide. If I said the wrong thing, got desperate … I had to be on my guard. Always.

When I came back, I found David sitting at a table in the diner, contemplating a menu. He had a cup of steaming coffee in front of him. I gestured at the waitress for the same and picked up my own copy of the house specials.

“Any ideas?” I asked.

I got a quick flash of copper eyes over the top of the menu. “A few,” he said. It sounded neutral, but his eyes weren't. They were verging on Djinn again, not enough human camouflage to matter. “You need to end this. Now. Before it's too late.”

“Get stuffed.” I studied choices. The waitress- who, amazingly enough, had pink hair to go with her pink uniform-delivered my coffee, and I made an instant decision. “I know it's weird, but I want breakfast. Got any blueberry muffins?”

“Sure,” she shrugged. “What else?”

“Pancakes. And bacon.”

Pink hair nodded. “For you, handsome?”

David shrugged. “The same.” She folded our menus and was gone in a flash of a cotton-candy skirt.

Which left us looking at each other in uncomfortable silence.

“You have to stop,” David said at last. “You're running out of money. You have no friends, no family. You don't even know if Lewis will help you.”

“I've got you,” I pointed out.

“Do you?” A flash of hot-metal temper in his eyes. “Not unless you say the words.”

There was no way to answer that, and I didn't try. I looked down at my hands, adjusted the silverware into neat rows, and finally sipped coffee.

“You're a fool,” he finally said, and sat back. “Marion's hunters will be coming for you, and how will you fight them?”

“Same way I already did.”

“The Mark is taking you over. It's moving slowly, but it's moving. It's filtering into your thoughts, your actions-that's why you won't take what I'm offering. It isn't because you care about me. It's because the Demon won't allow it.”

He touched a nerve I didn't think was raw. “Shut up,” I snapped. “Enough. We're going on to Oklahoma City. I've got friends there. Besides, Lewis will know what to do.”

He leaned across the table and fixed me with those eerie, inhumanly beautiful eyes. “What if he doesn't?”

“Then I guess Marion's people are going to get a big surprise when they try to give me a power-ectomy.”

He sat back as the waitress slid plates of food between us. We ate in silence, avoiding each other's gazes like old married folks.

When we were finished, there was still a basket of blueberry muffins between us. I asked for a sack and bagged them up. Not like there was a chance in hell I'd live to starve to death, but still. Reflex.

We got back in the Land Rover and drove into the surreal yellow glow of Oklahoma City.

I don't suppose anybody ever forgets how they lose their virginity. I certainly can't forget. And, of course, it involved a storm.

Rain is a mixed blessing when you're in college. Everybody likes rain, to a point, but when you're trudging around campus, soaked to the skin and looking like something the Red Cross would put on a poster, it loses its charm. So there I was-cold, wet, eighteen, and a virgin. Yes, really, eighteen. I wasn't saving myself or anything noble like that; the simple fact was that I thought most guys who wanted to drag me into the backseat were losers, and I had more standards than hormones.

College was different. Here I was at this great school, with all its rich history and good-looking young men, and even better, I was in a program that not only didn't punish me for my weirdo status, it valued me. After four months, I was blooming. Putting away the baggy shirts and shapeless sweatpants, indulging in clingy, flirty clothes my mother wouldn't approve of.

That was how it happened: clingy, flirty shirt, tight blue jeans, and a storm.

I came into the Microclimate Lab blown on a cold gust of wind, dropped my backpack to the floor with a squish, and leaned against the wall to catch my breath. My lab partner was already there and looking so dry and comfortable, I knew he hadn't been out of the building all day.

“It's about time,” he said. “You're thirty minutes late. We've got to map the pressure streams and have all this done for Yorenson by noon tomorrow-“

He was turning around, and about the time he got to that part of the sentence, he saw me standing there and stopped talking. I wiped water out of my eyes and saw him staring at me. Well, not at me, exactly. At my chest.

The clingy, flirty shirt? The rain had turned it about as transparent as fishnet.

I wasn't wearing a bra. And my nipples were as hard as thumbtacks from the cold wind.

I crossed my arms over my chest and tried not to look too much like the fool I felt. My lab partner- somebody I'd had a crush on from about the first ten seconds of laving eyes on him-didn't care how much of one he looked, apparently, because he just blinked and kept staring.

“You were saying?” I asked.

He clearly drew a blank.

I sighed. “Yes, I'm a girl. Don't tell me you never noticed before.”

He had the grace to blush, and he did it well-one of those neck-to-hairline flushes that makes some men look all the more attractive. He was one of them. Dark hair, bedroom eyes. Not that I cared, of course. Much.

“Here,” he said, and stood up to take off his jacket. He started to hand it over, then hesitated. “Maybe you should, um, turn around first.”

When I did, he draped the jacket over my shoulders and let me situate everything to my not-so-high standards of modesty. The jacket was warm dark leather, and it smelled like aftershave and male sweat. When I turned around, he was working hard at being the gentleman the jacket offer implied. I was frankly a little disappointed.

“Guess we'd better get to work,” I said.

“Not yet. You're freezing.”

I was shaking, all right, but it was half hormones; the lab was empty except for the two of us, and we had it scheduled for the entire afternoon. Rain lashed the windows, and thunder rumbled so deep, I felt it like a caress.

Showing off, he warmed up the room by about five degrees. I was grateful, but we both knew it was a violation of the rules. No adjusting of temperature for anything but assignments. Still, no teachers taking notes.

“I'm okay,” I said, and took my seat at the table. My hair was still wet and dripping, so I bent over and squeezed as much out of it as I could. When I straightened up, the jacket gaped open, and I saw his eyes dive to get another look.

We pretended to work for a while-okay, maybe we even did work for a while-and actually came up with some right answers for the day and recorded them in our logs. Fast, too; we finished the assignment and had at least an hour left. The storm was still blowing outside, and the energy tingled all over, begging me to come out and play. I was almost dry now, but still wore his jacket, and he hadn't asked for it back.