Letting Go (Mitchell Family #1)(16)
Author: Jennifer Foor

I insisted on doing the dishes and Colt didn’t argue. He was sitting on the couch with Sam sprawled out over his lap. Once again he wasn’t wearing a shirt. I caught myself glancing over and just looking at his body. He wasn’t giant, like over muscular, but he was well defined. I thought about the way his skin felt last night when we kissed and I felt my cheeks getting hot. As much as we were trying to fight it, I wanted to kiss him again, even more so today. I kept replaying what happened last night in my mind and all of the things he said to me.

That was one thing that neither of us brought up so far today, and part of me worried that he may have regretted it. He was right about me needing to be happy with my life. Ty wouldn’t want me to be miserable. Was I wrong for wanting to move on? Was I an awful person for being attracted to someone that saved and took care of me? He was the first person who had treated me with respect since the accident. Even if he didn’t want me for more than a friend, I would be okay with that. Except for my so called friend Brina, he was all I had.

Once I finished in the kitchen, I headed over to the couch. We sat on opposite ends and started watching a movie. After a while he sat a pillow in his lap and offered me to lay down. At first it was innocent, but as the time passed I felt his hands stroking my hair. I wanted to look up at him, but I didn’t have the nerve to do it. I was afraid he would stop and I didn’t want him to.

“Savanna?”

“Yeah?”

“I know you have to get back to school tomorrow for finals, but I need to talk to you before you go.” He stated.

“Okay. Just so you know, I don’t have finals until Tuesday.” I said as I smiled up at him.

His face was serious so I sat up and faced him. “What’s wrong?” I asked.

“I um. Well I didn’t really sleep much last night. After what happened….the kiss I mean, well it got me thinkin’. Then after this morning I knew for sure I needed to bring this up.”

“I’m not following you Colt. Just tell me.” I said wondering what was going on. “Do you want me to leave now? Are you mad about the kiss?”

He looked down at his knees. “I really enjoy your company and I don’t want you to leave. I was kind of hopin’ you would stay.” He said in a calm voice.

My mouth dropped open. I didn’t know what to say…..

I had loved Ty since I was fourteen years old, but the past two days with Colt had made me feel alive again. So much had happened to get me to where I was right now. I didn’t want to turn my back on Ty, but how long could I wait? For countless days I had done nothing but cry and want to end my life. Finally, someone made we want to smile again. At first, I thought it was through pity, but I could see the fire for me building in Colt’s eyes and just knowing it sent sensation through my body that I thought would never exist again.

I wanted more…

I wanted him…

Colt

I shouldn’t have said it, but I did. I just wanted to be around her and it wasn’t because of some kiss, even though that was pretty hot. It was because I genuinely enjoyed her company and seeing that she enjoyed mine, well it made my decision making easier.

She was like a lost little puppy and I wanted to save her. I wanted to see her smile and I especially wanted to feel those lips. Even if this was a temporary attraction, I wanted to explore it more.

At one time, she may have been my cousin’s girl, but right now she was all alone. Maybe I was being a horrible relative, but I was a grown man. I’d been so horrible to her in the past. I couldn’t help but want to make it up to her, to spend time with her and show her that she was allowed to smile again.

“Say something.” I said in a panic when I saw the look in her eyes.

She closed her eyes and shook her head. “I don’t know what to say Colt. I mean, what is this thing that is going on between us? Is it real or is it just something new and exciting? I want to tell you that I can’t stay. I want to say that I regret kissing you.” Her eyes locked with mine. I could feel my heart beating in my chest. She was going to tell me we weren’t on the same page and that she just couldn’t do something like this, with me of all people. How could I expect that she would. Of all the people in the world, why would she want to start something with her boyfriend’s cousin?

Before I could tell her never mind, she shocked me by taking my hand. “But it would be a lie Colt. I don’t know what is happening, but I don’t want it to stop. I haven’t felt this way in so long. I haven’t let myself live. And if you don’t kiss me right now, I might pass out from all of this excitement.”

Without hesitation, I pulled her into my arms and pressed my lips against hers. There wasn’t anything gentle about it this time and I could sense her sudden eagerness. We went from something innocent to an explosion of lust.

I ran my hands into her hair and pulled her in closer. With my other hand I touched her thigh and ran my hands slowly at the base of her shorts. Savanna grabbed the collar to my shirt and pulled me even closer into our kissing. She held me tightly as her lips drug over mine. Her soft tongue played with my bottom lip before she bit it gently with her teeth. When her hands found the edge of the bottom of my shirt, I pulled away. “Are you sure about this Savanna, because if we go any further, I won’t be able to stop. “ I admitted.

I put my forehead against hers and waited for her to reply. She reached for my lips again, but I pulled away, awaiting her answer. She kept her eyes closed but I watched as she licked her lips. “I want you Colt.” She whispered.

I didn’t reply with words, instead I grabbed her shirt and pulled it over her head. I could feel the heat building as I caught my first glimpse of her bra. Her perky little lips found mine again as one of my hands caressed her breast. I finally let her pull off my shirt and our mouths only separated for seconds as it left my head. Savanna slowly kissed my chin and I held my head back and absorbed how amazing her tongue felt as she drug it against my neck. With both of her hands she began feeling my chest, paying close attention to my ni**les. When she reached them she pinched them both while she kissed my shoulder.

I pulled her onto my lap and let her straddle me. Just having her ass in my hands made me rock hard. I had felt it a few times in the past couple days, but this time she was offering. Her shorts made it easy for me to slide my hands up them. I pressed firmly as I made my way up her thighs and when I touched the fabric of her panties she giggled. “Are you okay?” I asked.