Letting Go (Mitchell Family #1)(18)
Author: Jennifer Foor

“Are you having regrets? I won’t be mad Savanna.” He said.

I closed my eyes for a second and turned on my side, propping my head up with my hand. His fantastic chest was inches away from my face and I finally gave in and let my head lay against it. I ran my fingers across the top of it. “If we didn’t have some kind of guilt for what we just did than we would both be heartless, but I don’t regret it. It was so perfect Colt. I didn’t want it to end honestly.”

Colts arms finally wrapped around my back and pulled me back into his arms. I felt his lips kiss the top of my head and he held his face in my hair. “I don’t regret it either.”

“What do we do now?” I asked.

I heard him sigh. “Do you really want to talk about this right now? My body feels like jello and having you laying here naked prevents my brain from working properly.” He joked.

We both let out small laughs. I stroked a tiny patch of hair in the center of his chest.

“I can’t believe we just did that.” I confessed.

“Yeah, I didn’t see that comin’, but it sure felt nice.” He agreed.

I kissed his chest and closed my eyes. “It felt great.”

Colt and I must have fallen asleep, because when I opened my eyes again I was still in his arms. I felt so safe here with him. After all of the brutal things people had said and done to me, I had finally found a safe haven. He wanted me to stay and I couldn’t bear to leave, not when he was being like this.

I think every girl I knew at some point had fantasies of Colt Mitchell and here I was lying naked in his strong arms. It was surreal.

I couldn’t stop thinking about his lips and how good they felt as they kissed every part of my body. He knew how to touch a woman and I admired that he made a point to pleasure me first. Ty had never worried about that, in fact I couldn’t think of one time he had done that before taking care of himself first.

I hated comparing them, and it was probably some unforgivable sin, but I just couldn’t help it. It was the only thing I had to compare to. I was just so amazed at how passionate our encounter had been. Perhaps it was because he was an adult and had been with other adults. A feeling of jealousy rushed through me as I thought about Colt being with other, more experienced women.

I started getting myself upset, thinking he was just being nice. I didn’t have much experience, so I just assumed that I couldn’t compare to some of the women he had been with. I hated that and I couldn’t help but think I could never be good enough for someone like Colt.

Colt

So I did it, I slept with my cousin’s girlfriend. I should of known better to involve myself in her problems and spend the past couple days alone with her. Now, I didn’t want to let her go. I understood why she was so special to him and how he couldn’t do it either.

I wanted to feel guilty, hell I wanted to regret it, but I just couldn’t. Every inch of her skin was like kissing heaven. Savanna was beautiful and my most favorite part about her was that she didn’t really know it.

I didn’t understand how everyone could turn their backs on someone like her. I wanted her to know she could count on me as a friend. I really hoped that having sex with her didn’t ruin that friendship. In the past I had treated her meanly, but now I wanted to make up for it. She deserved to be happy and to smile.

I kissed her on the head again and felt her stirring. “How do you feel?”

She sat up and stretched her arms before looking in my direction. She seemed so relaxed. “I feel better than I have in a long time actually. How bout you?”

I started to laugh. “Yeah, I kinda feel great myself.”

She started to climb out of the bed and I grabbed her and pulled her back. “Wait! Where are you goin’?”

She pushed me away. “I have to pee.” I got a smile as she kissed my lips. “Is that okay?”

I brushed my lips against hers. “As long as you come right back.” Before letting her climb out of the bed again, I kissed her once more.

She turned around and smiled at me as she made her way out of the bedroom. She looked so beautiful naked. I shook my head, still in shock that we had just had sex. I tucked my arms behind my head closing my eyes and replaying how every inch of her body felt. I think I would be okay if we never left this bed.

I hadn’t heard her come back in the room, but I knew it when she jumped back on top of me. “I am hungry.” She said as she bit down on my chin.

I flipped her over on the bed and tickled her sides. She began laughing hysterically. “Stop it please!” She begged in between my tickle attacks.

I grabbed both of her br**sts and shook them in my hands. She tried to get free of me, but I was too strong. Finally she yelled, “Stop it or I will put my clothes back on.” I stopped immediately.

“We can’t have that now.” I said as I winked at her and climbed out of the bed. She propped herself up and watched me walking toward the door.

“What is that?” She asked as I turned away from her.

I knew what she was asking. “I am surprised you didn’t notice it sooner.”

“Oh my God Colt does that say ‘YOUR NAME’?” She burst out laughing.

“Well, yeah, it does.” I admitted.

“What the hell would you do that for?”

“It was my first tattoo. I thought it would be funny to tell everyone their name was on my ass.” I confessed.

She put her hand over her face and tried to hide the laughter.

“Shall I put on some shorts?” I teased.

“No way! I could watch you walk around all day.” She confessed while biting down on her lip.

I smiled and felt my cheeks warming up. It was funny that someone like Savanna could make me blush. I didn’t remember the last time I had felt embarrassed. “Keep talkin’ to me like that I will come back in here and kiss you all over again.” I threatened.

“Please do!” She yelled as I headed to the bathroom.

Before heading back into the room, I ran into the living room and pulled the cowboy hat off of the mounted deer head on the wall. I set the hat atop my head and leaned my naked body against the bedroom door. “I hear someone in here was looking for a cowboy to tame her every desire.” I kidded.

She stuck her fingers in her mouth and giggled. The best part was how her eyes lingered up and down my body as I stood there posing.

“So do I have the job?” I asked while still standing in the same spot. “Gettin’ kind of cold here Darlin’”