Letting Go (Mitchell Family #1)(34)
Author: Jennifer Foor

Ty’s parents were already running inside as we pulled into the parking lot. I knew they were thrilled to have their son awake. I wanted to see him too. I just didn’t know exactly how to act or what to say.

Colt and I got out of the car. We kept our distance and said nothing until we got in the elevator. Before the door flew open, he pulled me back. He seemed stressed. “Savanna….I….I’m here for you.”

We rushed out of the elevator and headed toward Ty’s room. I started walking slow, but began to almost run. I didn’t look back to see Colt, maybe I should have, but I just couldn’t. I got to the doorway and saw him. He was sitting up. His mother and father at both of his sides. When he saw me the world around us stopped.

“There’s my girl.” He announced.

I just stood there frozen in place. I couldn’t move.

Chapter 20

Colt

An hour ago, she was mine.

There was no going back. I had the whole drive over to plead my case, to fight for what I wanted. Instead I let her slip through my fingers. I felt the dagger stab through my heart when I heard Ty calling her into that room.

I couldn’t even walk in there at first. I stood outside with my head down, tryin’ not to listen to them talkin’. I could still hear them, like my ears where only tuned into them instead of everything else going on around the hospital.

At first Savanna seemed reluctant to go to him, for a second I had hope. Once he called her over, my hope went away. Through the glass I watched Savanna run to his bedside. My aunt and uncle did not seemed thrilled. They gave me a dirty look, like I wasn’t even part of the family anymore. I couldn’t imagine what they thought of Savanna now.

Ty did his best to hug her. I wasn’t sure what it was like for him. I mean, the last thing he remembered was being in an accident I reckon’. He didn’t have to go through the long days and nights wonderin’. He didn’t have to suffer the way Savanna had.

Even after their first embrace, and me turning away so I couldn’t watch, I still listened to him talking to Savanna as if nothing had changed. When I finally couldn’t take it anymore, I decided to go in and say goodbye, before I headed out. I couldn’t stay there, not knowing that I could never have her.

The room got quiet as I approached my cousins bed. Savanna never looked at me, which sent pain straight to my heart. My cousin held out his hand and actually pounded me like we did something cool. I gave him the best smile I could fabricate.

“I have my four favorite people in the whole world here with me.” Tyler announced.

I tried to smile, I really did. One glance at my aunt and uncle and I could tell that the tension in the room could actually kill someone. I tried to ignore the hurtful looks from them, and the fact that Savanna refused to look at me at all. “It’s really good to see that you’re doin’ better cuz. We have all been waiting for you to make your return.”

“Yeah, the nurses said this lady here was with me almost every day.” He said as he held Savanna’s hand and kissed it, while she gave him her beautiful smile.

Even as a grown man, I felt stingin’ in my eyes. I shook my head and tried to smile again.

“Looks like you are goin’ to be home in no time at all.”

Ty looked over at Savanna. “The doc is going to let me know how much rehab I need and where I need to go. I hope I can come home, but I won’t know until we talk to him.”

For the first time I heard Savanna speak and it crushed me completely. “We just can’t wait to get you home babe.” Her smile was real and her tears proved it all.

“I just wanted to stop by and wish you well cuz. I need to get back to the farm.”

Ty let go of Savanna’s hand and shook mine. For the first time in my life I couldn’t stand my cousin. He may not have known it, but he had what I wanted. He had her.

Savanna

Everything was happening so fast. From the romantic evening, to getting caught, then finally being here. It was like a dream. The whole ride over I wanted to say something to Colt, but I couldn’t. I wanted him to tell me that he loved me too, and that no matter what we would find a way to be together.

I had waited so long for Ty to wake up, but now that he had, I didn’t know where my heart was. Colt had come into my life when I was at my lowest. In a way he had repaired what was broken and made me want to love again. We never fought, which was something Ty and I had done even on our happiest of days.

Now, I didn’t know what to do. Ty was awake and his parents had threatened Colt and I to never see each other again. I couldn’t live with myself for hurting Ty, or for him finding out that Colt and I slept together. As soon as I entered that room, I knew I never wanted him to find out, but I also knew that deciding that ended my chances of ever being with Colt again. I tried to hide my feelings, but as I stood there holding on to Ty’s hand all I could think about was hurting Colt.

Being in the room with his parents was overwhelming and even after taking the pill earlier, I felt like I couldn’t breathe. When Colt decided to leave, I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t run after him, knowing that Ty would wonder what had gotten into me and his parents might just spill the beans about my affair with his cousin. I needed to figure things out. I wouldn’t be able to let Colt go without at least talking to him. When I told him that I loved him I meant it. He had to think I was being such a bitch right now. I just let him walk out of there anyway.

For the next hour Ty went on and on about what he had missed. How the team had done. How school went for me. How I got by. With his mother still there, I was unable to express the pure Hell I had endured for the past seven and a half months. He had no idea what my life had been like. The worst part was that I had waited so long for him to wake up, to have him back in my life and to tell him that I was sorry, but Ty didn’t even seem to care. He was in a fine mood, even acting like I had never caught him having sex with someone else. To make that even worse was the fact that I didn’t even care about Ty and that girl. I realized standing there that I didn’t care at all anymore. I had fallen completely in love with Colt and he made me see exactly what I wanted.

However, wanting something I couldn’t have was just the story of my life. As I stood here with Ty and his parents, I realized that my happy little ending was not going to come. Ty’s parents didn’t let me get a word in edgewise and I couldn’t interrupt. My fear of Ty finding out about Colt and I kept me from doing anything to piss them off.