Letting Go (Mitchell Family #1)(9)
Author: Jennifer Foor

This was harder than I thought. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. “Savanna please try to stand still. I am trying to be a gentleman here.”

She started laughing again, but then she bit down on her lip and looked me right in the eye. Her finger pointed toward my chest and she poked me with it. “Why did you call me names when we were younger Colt?”

I rolled my eyes. Of course she would bring this up. “Because I was an ass**le.”

I got her shorts unbuttoned and she started stepping out of them, using my shoulders to balance herself. I hadn’t realized that once they were removed, my face would be straight even with her very revealing panties. I stood up as fast as I could.

She just stood there looking at me. “You said I was a boy.” She took her hands and waved them from her head to her feet. “Do I look like a boy to you now?”

She was drunk. Completely trashed, but I looked at her figure anyway. I was human and she was gorgeous. Her waist was so tiny but her hips accented her backside perfectly. When my face actually looked at her chest, I tried to focus on the scratches and not her br**sts. I closed my eyes. “Van you are drunk. I am not going to answer that.”

I grabbed my shirt off the bed and pulled it over her head. She stepped into my boxers without arguing, but as I got her into my bed and tucked the covers up, she looked at me again. I gave her a smile and turned to walk out of the room but she grabbed my hand.

“Thank you Colt.” She whispered.

I looked at her, at the girl who I used to tease about being a boy, and the one that was possibly the prettiest woman I had ever seen. “Goodnight Savanna.”

I knew from that moment I would never call her Van again and restraining myself from wanting to touch her was going to be difficult.

Chapter 6

Savanna

I woke up and didn’t remember where I was and after having an awful dream that I was falling into nothingness, I felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. I took a look around the room and started to panic, until I felt the pain all over my body, reminding me where I was and what had happened.

I climbed out of the bed and walked toward the bathroom. Since the carriage house was small, it was basically a wide open lay out besides the bathroom and bedroom. I spotted Colt asleep on the couch with half of his body hanging off the end and sides. I was going to ignore it, but I felt terrible that he was on that old ass couch without even a blanket to cover him up.

He stirred when I approached him. “Savanna? Are you okay?” He sat up and asked.

“I am fine Colt. Why don’t you just come and sleep in the bed with me. We can separate with pillows between us and use different covers. We are both adults and there is no reason you need to try to sleep on that hard ass couch.”

I watched as he considered my suggestion. “I don’t think that is a good idea.”

“You are being ridiculous. I promise not to touch you Colt. To be honest with you, I can’t sleep either. I had a horrible dream and think I would feel better if I wasn’t alone. Besides, we have known each other for half of our lives. It is not a big deal.” I meant it innocently. The alcohol was wearing off already and I just wanted to sleep. He helped me tonight, more than anyone else would have done. It wasn’t really a big deal if we slept in the same bed. Colt would never think of me like that anyway. To him, I was probably still that girl that looked like a boy.

He kept shaking his head. “Savanna, I can’t do that.”

“Why? I am not going to try anything if that is what you are worried about!” I blurted out rudely.

He laughed and scratched his head. His hair was sticking up all over the place. “I aint worried about that Savanna.”

The way he said it made me mad. It was almost like if I were the last person on the planet, I still wouldn’t be in his league. “Well you don’t have to be rude Colton. I was just trying to be nice. So sorry that I repulse you that much that you can’t be near me without feeling all weird about it. Geesh, you’re an ass.”

I don’t know if it was the way I said it, or him just realizing the couch sucked, but he stood up and stretched and followed me in the room. “I didn’t mean it like that.” He climbed onto the bed on the other side of me and got himself situated so he wasn’t facing me. After about five minutes of silence I heard him clear his throat. “You don’t repulse me Savanna.”

I didn’t answer him. It felt so nice not being by myself that I closed my eyes and let myself sleep.

When I woke the next morning, I was surprised to find Colt still asleep. The clock read seven, but I remembered him saying he didn’t have work until next week. Sometime during the night, he had turned over and he was facing me. I lay with my head on my pillow staring at his beautiful face. It made me miss Ty so much. I felt so lonely even though I was with him all of the time. It was hard to be with someone that couldn’t talk back to you, that couldn’t even look at you. He just lay there silent and still.

I watched Colt’s chest rising and falling. His hair was a mess and his mouth half open, but he was still handsome. Colt had a tiny scar just above his right cheek. I was there when he got it. We had been riding four wheelers and somehow he flipped his. He refused to get stitched up and said it would make him look tough for the ladies. Funny thing was that he was right. Girls were on him like glue. When he and Ty used to talk, Ty would turn around and tell me about all of his crazy hook ups. We even fought about it sometimes, because Ty seemed like he was so interested in it, almost like he wanted to live like that himself.

I continued to watch Colt as he slept, focusing on his chiseled chin and his slightly crooked nose, possibly from braking it at some point. It was silly because you could barely notice it, until you were as close up as I was.

Before I could even snap out of it, Colt opened his eyes. When he focused on me watching him, he jumped out of the bed. Colt turned back to look at me, before heading out of the bedroom and into the bathroom. He never said a word. I sat up and looked past the door waiting for him to come out. Finally, when I heard the water running, I lay back down and stared at the ceiling.

I had been in this room a zillion times with Ty, in fact in this same room was where I lost my virginity. He had waited for his parents to go out one night and set up candles all around the room. All of my friends had awful first times, but mine was with the guy I loved and was going to marry.

My head was pounding and every part of my body was aching. The water was still running in the bathroom, but I need to pee and get some medicine. I knocked on the door. “Colt, are you going to be much longer?” I asked.