Rhett in Love (Rhett #2)(17)
Author: J.S. Cooper

“We can’t just…” Her voice trailed off as I took my pants and boxers off and stood there in front of her naked.

“I want to make sweet love to you, Clemmie.” I stepped forward and grabbed her hand and placed it on my already hard cock. “I’m so turned on right now.”

“Rhett.” Her eyes were uncertain as she played with my cock. I grabbed her other hand and pulled her down to the rug. “Ooh, Rhett.” She groaned as I spread her legs and buried my face in her pussy, my tongue licking her up eagerly, loving the taste of her on my face.

“Shh, we can talk later.” I lifted my head up and gave her a quick smile, before burying my face back in her wetness and sticking my tongue inside of her. She cried out and I felt her inner thighs clenching my face as I ate her out. I smiled as I felt her body trembling underneath me and sucked down on her clit. I was good at sex. I knew that. I knew that I could make her come. I knew that I could make it all better with sex. As I felt her juices pouring down on my face, a thought flashed through my mind. A thought that made me think twice about what I was doing. A thought that made me worried and scared. We were having make-up sex, but we hadn’t really addressed any of the problems that we had in the relationship. And there were definite problems that were showing up already. Problems I didn’t know how to fix. Problems that we hadn’t had as best friends. Problems I was scared could end the relationship. I closed my eyes so that I could focus on making Clementine feel good, but I knew that hot sex wasn’t going to seal the cracks that were already developing between us. I was scared inside. I was more scared than I’d ever been in my life. I loved this woman more than anything in my life, but I didn’t know if that was going to be enough.

Chapter Six

Clementine

And all that we’ve been through

Don’t leave me

I won’t leave you

And all that we’ve been through

Be with me

I’ll shelter you

“Shelter” by David Berkeley- The Fire in My Head

“I’ll miss you guys.” Tomas gave me a quick hug before turning to Rhett. “Y’all have to come back home soon.”

“Yeah, we’re going to come for Thanksgiving and Christmas.” Rhett spoke up and I could feel my stomach churning. What was he talking about? I hadn’t been planning on going home for Thanksgiving as I had to study for finals.

“Okay great.” Tomas grabbed his bag. “I can’t wait. I better go as the taxi’s waiting for me.”

“Have a great flight back, Tomas.” I smiled at him. “I enjoyed having you here. Give Jake a big hug for me and tell him he needs to get his ass up here soon.”

“Will do, Clemmie.” He rubbed the top of my head. “Thanks for having me guys.”

“Bye.” Rhett gave him a slap on the shoulder. “Stay safe, bro.”

“You too.” Tomas walked out of the door, flashed another smile and left.

“I’ll miss his crazy ass.” Rhett said after closing the door.

“I’m just glad he’s not here to take you to strip-clubs every weekend.” I smiled at him and he laughed in response. We both stood there for a few seconds awkwardly and I sighed. “We should talk.” I bit my lower lip nervously. I didn’t want to have this conversation. At all.

“Yeah.” He nodded and looked at me with a sad face. His expression made my heart stop and I walked to the couch.

“So,” I started, but my voice cracked and I didn’t know what to say.

“So,” He said and we sat down on the couch.

“About the other day.” I took a deep breath. “I want to apologize.”

“What happened the other day?” He frowned.

“The day we were in the park.” I smiled. “I shouldn’t have blamed you for us getting caught or for us having sex in the park. I think I was just stressed and worried and still in shock.”

“It’s okay.” He nodded. “I understand Clemmie. And I should apologize as well. I’m the one that convinced you that the park would be safe.”

“You’d try and convince me of any and everything, Rhett.” I laughed and stared at him. “You’ve got a way with words.”

“Well you know.” He grinned and winked at me.

“But after that, when we were arguing, we said some things.” I frowned. “I think we should talk about them.”

“Talk about what?” He frowned.

“Just what’s going on between us?” I made a face. “I know this isn’t what either one of us was expecting.”

“What do you mean?” His expression changed and he looked worried.

“You know what I mean, Rhett.” I sighed. “I know you stop yourself from telling me stuff now. I know that this is different for both of us.”

“Are you breaking up with me?”

“No.” I shook my head. “But I’m scared Rhett. Everything was so easy between us and now, well now…” My voice trailed off and we just stared at each other.

“No one said it would be this hard, did they?” He half-laughed. “I don’t know why it’s this hard. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. Maybe I’m not cut out for relationships.”

“Rhett, I think both of us need to adjust our expectations of what this relationship should be like.”

“I’m not the boyfriend you’ve always dreamed of having, am I?” He looked sad. “I wish I was that guy, but I have a past, Clemmie.”

“It has nothing to do with your past, Rhett.” I shook my head. “I knew about your past. I just expected a bit more romance.”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean romance, not just sex.” I looked at his confused expression. “I know that you might not understand. I just don’t know how to explain this to you.” I mumbled. How could I tell him that I thought he used sex to solve everything? How could I tell him that I felt like he wasn’t truly giving himself to me? How could I tell him that I wanted him to woo me, and that I wanted to feel his deep devotion on a daily basis. How could I tell him that I didn’t feel like his girlfriend, but more like his best friend with benefits? I was scared to tell him. I was scared that he would respond badly. I didn’t know how he would respond because he’d never been in a real relationship before. I knew that he wasn’t emotionally equipped for conversations like this and I didn’t know how to approach the topic.