Riot (Page 69)

“Liar.”

I sigh, and she turns her gaze back toward the boys. There’s no point in telling her I’ll miss her. I’ve told her a thousand times.

“Me too,” she says, and she bumps her shoulder against mine.

I wish she was the only one I’ll miss, but looking out at the boys, I can’t help thinking that I’ll miss them too. And I can’t help knowing that one of them is missing.

Chapter Twenty-Six

PACKING AWAY MY glassware was our first mistake. Forgetting to buy Solo cups at the store was our second. Now, everyone is passing around a collection of liquor bottles and soda cans. We’re all sitting on the empty hardwood floor of my apartment, boxes of pizza in the middle of our circle and a cake Rowan won’t let me stick my finger into hiding in the fridge.

“To getting an A on that marketing final,” Shawn says, toasting a bottle of tequila in the air.

“To fashion school,” Leti adds, toasting a bottle of vodka.

“To drinking straight from the bottle,” Adam quips, toasting a bottle of whiskey.

I chuckle, and Rowan toasts a hard lemonade in the air. “To Dee.”

I smile and steal the tequila from Shawn, holding it out toward Adam. “To Adam, for being the only not-corny person here.”

He laughs and clinks his bottle to mine, and we both take big gulps.

“To everyone who bothered to work today,” Mike adds, and Rowan laughs and toasts her lemonade bottle to his beer bottle. Adam laughs too because he knows Mike is referring to him. For the most part today, Adam did a miraculous job of looking like he was helping without actually doing anything.

“How many pairs of shoes do you think you own?” asks Kit. She somehow ended up sitting next to Shawn, but he’s doing a remarkable job of not acknowledging the bombshell at his side, and Kit is doing a remarkable job of being extra bombshelly. I wonder what would happen if they accidentally rubbed elbows. Would they glare at each other and show their teeth, or would sparks fly and lead to a whole lot of clothing being ripped off right in the middle of this room?

“Easily a thousand,” Leti answers, “judging by how much those boxes weighed.”

“You should see my closet at home,” I say, and then I laugh and add, “and the basement, and the guest bedroom.”

Rowan nods. “It’s true. When I lived at home, I almost never needed to buy shoes because we’re the same size.”

“What size are you?” Kit asks.

“Seven and a half,” Rowan and I both answer.

“I’m a nine,” Kit replies. “Your feet are tiny.”

“Yours are just big because you’re tall and built like a freaking supermodel,” I point out, mostly for Shawn’s benefit.

Kit smiles but shakes her head at the compliment. “Everyone in my family is tall. My older brothers are huge. They’re all over six foot.”

“So are we,” Shawn says of himself and the rest of the guys.

“Yeah, but you,” Kit says, pushing her finger into his bicep, “are scrawny. You don’t look big at all.”

Shawn stiffens, and I nearly burst out laughing. Kit just smiles that warm-cold smile of hers, making me wonder what happened after they slept together in high school. It must not have been pretty.

“Are you ready for cake?” Rowan asks to diffuse the tension.

“I’m ready for presents,” I say, eyeing the stack piled in the corner of the room. It’s always so easy to tell which were wrapped by boys—loose edges of wrapping paper and extra tape everywhere.

“You know the drill,” Rowan says. When she pushes off the floor, I attempt to follow her to the kitchen, but she shoos me back out to the living room. “Don’t look.”

“I hope it’s vanilla,” Kit says, and I shake my head.

“It’s going to be chocolate with chocolate icing.”

The lights cut, and Rowan starts the birthday song. Everyone joins in, and in the dark, a lump forms in my throat. I’m going to miss them. Every single one of them. I try to clear my eyes before the candles illuminate my face.

“Dear Deeeeee,” everyone sings, “Happy birthdaaay to yooou.”

“Make a wish.” Rowan holds the cake in front of me, and I think about making one. I could wish to get accepted into fashion school. I could wish for the T-shirts to make me famous. I could wish for Joel to appear in my doorway. He’d tell me he still loves me and ask me not to go. When I realize that’s what I want most of all, I blow out the candles without wishing anything at all. Rowan smiles, my friends cheer, and I pretend to be the kind of girl who still believes in wishes and who still bothers to make them.

“We did buy plastic plates and silverware, right?” Rowan asks, and everyone looks at each other.

“Not it,” Adam calls, initiating a frenzy of not-it calling and nose touching. In the end, Mike and Shawn take a road trip to the grocery store. They return with plates and silverware, and when Rowan asks them why they didn’t get cups too, since we still need those, they simply shrug and tell her because she only told them to get plates and silverware.

“Alright,” I say, licking a fourth swipe of icing off my finger as she huffs at them, “someone give me a present.”

Rowan cuts the cake and begins handing out slices as Leti slides the pile of gifts in front of me. I open them at random, getting a gift card from Kit, a scented candle from Shawn, a kickass perfume from Leti, and a second scented candle from Mike, who I suspect brainstormed gift ideas with Shawn. Rowan and Adam give me a ridiculously expensive sewing machine that almost makes me cry, and then she gives me a second present which is a set of the coolest-looking pairs of scissors I’ve ever seen—with sparkly purple handles and lots of differently shaped edges.