Twinsequences (Twisted Twin #1)(17)
Author: Jennifer Foor

Stosh is a mess. I saw him crying when I was supposed to be asleep. He wanted that baby. He wanted our baby. My heart is broken. I just wanted us to be able to love something together. I wanted to give him something that nobody else could.

I never even knew she was pregnant again. How sad! I had to skip a few months to read anything worth mentioning.

Dec 24th

I found out that Willow isn’t coming home for Christmas. Part of me actually wanted to spend time with her. It’s a shame that I don’t want her around Stosh. I don’t trust her with him. She’s had too much time to think about what she wants. What if she wants my husband? I’d kill her before I let her touch him. He’s mine! She’ll never have him! NEVER!

I had to take a break. I was both disgusted and enraged. My sister didn’t know what love was. My heart hurt when I read about her miscarriage, but I didn’t feel sorry for her.

I flipped through a few more pages, going almost a year ahead.

Oct 22nd

Stosh didn’t come home last night. I think he found out what I was doing at my new job. I could have sworn I saw his car in the parking lot. He doesn’t understand that I’m just dancing. I’m not a whore.

His drinking is getting out of hand. Most nights, he passes out on the couch. We barely speak. It’s the reason I got the job in the first place. I needed my own money.

I miss him. I just don’t know what to do. How do I save my marriage?

The next couple months were all about her trying to be a perfect wife, so I passed through them with just a glance.

Dec 31st

Apparently, the key to my husband’s heart starts in his dick. We rung in the new year in bed and vowed to try harder in our marriage. He finally told me he loved me. I haven’t heard it in so long. He repeated it over and over, saying I was the best he’s ever had. It made me feel whole again. I love that man.

I skipped through them being all happy and in love. It was enough to make me want to puke all over the pages.

April 6th

I can’t believe it. How could he do this to me? How could he sleep with that little bitch? He thought I was working. He brought her to our house and f**ked her in my bed. I heard him telling her he loved her. He said she was the best he ever had. I wanted to kill them both. I’ve never felt so betrayed. My life is over without him.

She didn’t write in her diary for a whole month.

May7th

I can’t be sure, but Stosh says he ended things with that business associate. He’s been coming home on time every night and attending church with me on Sunday’s. Maybe I’m trying too hard, but it can’t hurt. I just want what we had back. I don’t want to lose him.

I skipped through the amazing sex they shared together. That was nothing that I wanted to read about.

Sept 1st

I took Stosh’s phone when he was asleep. I found a video of him and that women he’d had the affair with. They were naked in the shower. Doesn’t he realize that I depend on him? I have nothing without him. How can I stay in a marriage if I can’t trust him? I don’t know what to do.

Sept 4th

I slept with my boss last night. He bought me a necklace and told me he would give me the world if he could. He’d been begging me for months. I only did it to get back at Stosh. When I came home the next morning and told him, he begged me for another chance. Maybe the video on his phone was old?

Now I know how to get him to love me.

I skipped through more pages.

Jan 19th

Stosh made me quit my job. He said he would buy me a new car if I stayed home and focused on becoming a mother. I went to the doctor and he told me that I’m never going to be able to carry a baby full term. What am I going to do? How do I tell him that? He’s going to want to leave me. I have nothing to offer.

She never talked about anything for two more months.

March 9th

I’ve devised a plan to have a baby with my husband. It’s going to take a couple months to put together, but we’ll have a baby. I’m still not sure of the details, but hopefully things will work out. I’m going to have my happily ever after, no matter what I have to do to get it.

That was the last entry. I’d skipped many other entries, but those weren’t pivotal. My sister was sick. She needed help.

It took a while for me to take in everything I’d read. Stosh was no longer the innocent man that I’d fallen in love with. He was flawed. He’d cheated and had an affair. He’d told lies and lived a secret life.

It was hard to think about.

I had no choice, but to find him and talk about things. We still didn’t know what my sister was up to. I had to know how he felt about her. Was he just with me to get back at her? All these questions filled my mind. I was so confused.

Chapter 9

A large pizza and a slap in the face.

We didn’t get home until dinner time. I refused to talk to Stosh about the things that I read, until I had time to think about how I felt. Parts of his past hurt worse than others. He was only doing what he felt was right by my sister. I didn’t blame him for having an affair, but I didn’t like that he’d said the same things to both girls. It made me question his feelings for me, even though I felt like he was being sincere.

By the time we pulled up at his place, he couldn’t take my silence anymore. “Last night was the best night of my life, Willow. I’ve waited so long to be with you. I know you’re disappointed in me. I don’t blame you. Please, just don’t shut me out.” He grabbed my hand and waited for me to respond.

“I’m a grown woman, not a child. I don’t regret anything we’ve done. Last night was perfect. I just need to know…do you still love Ivy?”

He put his hands on the steering wheel. “I never loved her like I love you. I swear to God!”

“It’s not a competition. Obviously, she’s in love with you. We have no idea what she’s up to. I just want to be prepared.” I felt like I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. They needed therapy and divorce papers.

“I have no idea what she’s up to. I can’t believe you asked me that. Do you really think I’d love someone that lied and cheated and kept me away from you? I tried to be married, to do the right thing. It didn’t work. I slept with that other chick to get caught. I figured it would get me out of my marriage. Instead, it made her try harder.”

“How did you get this diary?” I held it up.

“I paid some kid to break into her car when I took her to the mall. We came out and everything was missing, including her hidden things in the trunk. She has no clue I have it.”