Twinsequences (Twisted Twin #1)(49)
Author: Jennifer Foor

What kind of human being could be that cold?

My mother patted my leg. “She’s being held at the county detention center until her arraignment. When we know where they are going to send her, your father is having her evaluated by someone he works with. Even if your sister would ever get out of jail, she’s going to be put away in an institution for a very long time. After talking to Stosh’s parents, we have a better idea of everything that’s been going on. We’re really sorry that we didn’t believe you. We just never thought your sister would be capable of such madness.”

“She wanted you dead. In fact, she wanted us all dead. I never had any idea how she felt about me. I trusted her and all along she’s been trying to ruin my life.”

My mother ran her hand through my hair. “Will you ever forgive us?”

I wanted to tell them that I was still angry; that nothing they said or did could make me forget that they’d turned their backs on me, but I just couldn’t. All I cared about was Stosh and our baby. “I’m not mad at you guys. We were all a part of Ivy’s scheme. None of us could have known she was capable of such horrible things.”

“Can we get you anything?” She asked.

“I need Stosh. Please, can you just find out if he’s okay? I need to know, Mom. I need to hear his voice. I can’t rest until I know he’s going to be fine.”

She looked over at my father. “We can go make some phone calls. Are you going to be okay here by yourself? I’m so worried about you.”

I nodded. “I’ll be fine as soon as I know he’s okay.” I rubbed my abdomen again. “We need to know.”

“You really love him don’t you?”

“I’ve loved him since the day he first walked into my life. I was just too afraid to tell him. Ivy took advantage of that and kept us apart. She told him I wasn’t interested and seduced him into thinking they slept together after prom. You read the diary. You know the truth.” I wiped my eyes again. “I can’t lose him, Mom. I just can’t, not after everything we’ve been through to be together.”

When my parents walked out of the room, I felt myself losing control of my emotions. My life had been threatened. My unborn child’s life had been threatened and their father had been shot. My sister was still ruining our lives, even from behind bars.

While Stosh fought to stay alive, she was probably sitting in a cell gloating about her accomplishments. I imagined bursting into the lock up room and shooting her for the hell of it. She made me sick and, for the first time, I accepted that she was no longer my sister.

I didn’t care if she was sick in the head. There were just some things in life that couldn’t be forgiven. I’d never forgive her for ripping out my heart and threatening my life and the people that I loved.

When my parents didn’t come back right away, I knew something had to be wrong. They didn’t want to burden you with bad news.

The problem was that I just had to know. I had to know if he didn’t make it.

I had to know if a part of my soul was going to be lost forever.

It hurt even more knowing that we’d missed so much time together. We should have been the ones that were married with little children running around.

All of the little things that Stoshua had done, while helping Ivy, seemed so small in comparison to a lifetime without him. I didn’t care that he’d lied to me, or hurt me. He did it to be with me, because he thought it was the only way it could ever happen. I think if the roles were reversed, I would have been desperate enough to do the same. My love for him had only grown stronger and the baby that was growing inside of me helped me to forgive.

The only thing that I wanted was to be able to feel his strong arms wrapping around me. I wanted to see him holding our baby when he or she was born. I wanted to lay in bed with our baby in between us, while looking into each other’s eyes.

He was everything to me and, even when we weren’t together, he always had been.

I waited another half hour before I sat up and started pushing the button for a nurse.

A woman, a little older than me came walking in. “Can I help you with something?”

“My parents? Have you seen them?”

She shook her head. “I’m afraid my shift just started. I can look around for them.”

“Don’t worry about it. They probably went to get something to eat.”

After she walked away, I grabbed the telephone and dialed Stosh’s number. Of course, I should have known that he couldn’t answer. Maybe I just wanted to hear his voice when the message thingy came on.

This is Stosh. You know what to do.

I started crying harder, just hearing his recorded voice.

It’s me. I know you aren’t listening right now, but I need you to know how much I love you. No matter where I was in life, you never left my mind and my heart. It’s always been you, Stoshua Wheeler. I don’t care about the past or what we’ve had to go through. I just want our future. I want us to be together. It doesn’t matter where we live, or what we do, as long as we’re together. We’re a family now and I need you so much. Do you hear me, Stosh? I can’t lose you, babe. I can’t lose the one thing that I’ve always wanted. We’re so close. You have to fight. Please, just be okay. I can’t live without you.

If he did hear the message, I wasn’t sure he would be able to hear the last parts. I was too emotional. Thinking about the possibility of him not surviving was making it hard to breathe. I needed to know.

I had to call information to get his parent’s phone number. I called three times and nobody had answered. I didn’t know who else I could call or what I could do. Knowing that they were going to come back at some point, I didn’t call my parents. If they were staying away, it was for a legitimate reason.

Unfortunately, only one thing could have kept them away.

My fear of losing Stosh was becoming a reality.

When my parents finally came around the corner, and my mother had tears in her eyes, I knew it couldn’t be good. I sat up and immediately started to cry harder. I felt all of my hope leaving my body. My heart was empty.

“No!” I shook my head while continuing to cry.

My parents looked at each other and then back to me. I didn’t take my eyes off of them as I waited to hear. I wished I was one of those people that could feel nothing. I wanted to be numb, instead of feeling overwhelmed with pain.

“Just say it. I need to hear you say it.”