Twinsequences (Twisted Twin #1)(53)
Author: Jennifer Foor

I kissed his soft lips. At first, he turned his head. I kissed his jaw and then his neck. “Tell me what you want, Stosh.” I nibbled on his ear, before kissing it. “Tell me that you want me to walk out that door and never come back. Is that what you really want?” I nudged his face with my nose and felt him bringing his lips toward mine. “Kiss me.”

He kissed me slowly, holding back from what I knew he was capable of. I pulled away and ran my fingers over his lips. He reached his hands around my waist and groaned. I swayed my hips back and forth and felt his hands going under my shirt and up my back. “You could have someone else that can walk with you and satisfy you the way I never can.”

“They’ll never give me what I want. They can’t be you, Stosh. They’ll never be what I want.” I kissed him again, feeling totally satisfied with just being in his arms.

“I have nothing to offer you. I can’t be a good father, if I can’t even walk around.”

“You don’t think our son or daughter is going to want to ride around with their cool dad? I don’t care about the chair. I don’t care about taking walks, or what you may not be able to do. I’ve loved you for so long and nothing has ever changed that. I’ll never be happy unless I’m with you.”

He stopped letting me kiss him. I saw fear in his eyes, even before they started to water. “I’m scared.”

“Don’t be.” I tried to kiss him but he pulled away again.

“I’m scared of losing you, Willow. I’m afraid to let you in, because I can’t live with watching you leave me. I just want you to be happy, even if it’s not with me.”

“That is a lie. You will be miserable and you know it. Words can’t describe what I feel when I’m with you. I know you feel that way, too. My sister took so much from me, but I won’t let her keep us apart. I won’t let anything keep us apart, Stosh. You’re my best friend and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I don’t care if you can’t walk. I don’t care about any of that. I love you for so many other reasons. Our baby is going to love you and you are the only father that they’ll ever have.”

A single tear fell down his cheek. “Please don’t say these things to make me happy.”

I kissed him on the forehead. “I’m saying these things because they’re true. What can I do to prove that to you?” I put my hands on his cheeks and made him look me in the eyes. “Stop pushing me away. Be with me because you want it as much as I do. These past few weeks have been Hell for me. I came here today, because I can’t take living another day without you. If you think I’m ever going to want something else, you’re totally wrong. You’re all I will ever want. I know it, because every time I think of you, I get butterflies in my stomach. Thinking about this baby growing inside of me, and knowing we made it together, makes my heart melt. I want you there when our child is born. I want you there for the first steps, for the first day of school and sitting next to me when they graduate from high school.”

He cleared his throat. “You’re not asking very much.”

I laughed. “I want it all!”

He ran his hands up and down my arms. “I can see that fighting with you only makes you try harder.”

“I can sit here forever if I have to.” Of course, that was an exaggeration. I already had to use the bathroom and being pregnant wasn’t helping.

“I guess there’s only one thing left to do then.”

“What’s that?” I wasn’t going to let him push me away this time. I was there for one reason and it wasn’t to be rejected. I was fighting for my future, a future for my family.

“I guess I need to hurry up with that divorce.”

“Come again?”

“Willow, I talked to my lawyer, when this all started happening. He said that since Ivy and I shared nothing of value, once the separation period was over, we could sign the papers and be done. Ivy will be locked up anyway. She won’t be able to hurt us. I won’t let her.”

“Are you saying what I think you are?” I was afraid to blink.

“The way I see it, I don’t have a choice but to give you what you want.”

“It’s taken you long enough to see that.” I was so happy that I couldn’t stop smiling.

He sighed. “It’s not going to be easy. I may never walk again and I’m having a hard time dealing with that. I’m going to have to move out of here, since I can’t take care of the main house, and that was how I got half taken off of my rent. I’ll do my best to try to keep you happy and to be a father, but with no legs, it will be difficult. I’m going to need you to have patience, since I know that’s something you struggle with.”

I put my fingers over his lips. “Stop talking.” I laughed. “Just tell me what I want to hear. I want you to say it without all this explaining.”

“You were right and I was wrong. I haven’t given up on us, because you’re all I want. I miss my best friend and being without you is tearing me apart. I never considered that something like this could happen to me. I thought once your sister was caught, we’d finally be together. When I found myself in the hospital, crippled, I just figured you’d be better off without me. I knew you’d fight me on it and it would be difficult. I just couldn’t imagine holding you back. I didn’t want to ruin your life.”

“It was never like that for me. I never even considered walking away. I’d do anything for you, Stosh.”

He pulled me into a hug and kept his lips near my ear. “Thank you for giving me the time I needed to see it. I’m sorry I hurt you, Willow. I know I promised I’d never do that again. Why you keep giving me chances is beyond my understanding. I don’t deserve you.”

“Well, your getting me anyway, because I can’t give you up. You’re all mine!”

We spent the rest of the afternoon cuddled up on that couch. Sure, I had to get up to use the bathroom and I made us something to eat. I also had to call my parents and let them know that we were working things out and I wouldn’t be home. Nothing was going to keep us apart, ever again.

Chapter 29

So long, farewell!

With each passing day, my belly grew and Stosh got used to being in a wheelchair. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. We found a house and my parents helped us put a down payment on it. I think they wanted to help me so much because they felt guilty. At any rate, we needed it.