Wanting More (Mitchell Family #5)(39)
Author: Jennifer Foor

I sat up on the bed and pulled her with me. My hands grabbed her on the shoulders. “Listen to me right now. I chose to be with you even when I knew you were married. At the time, hell, I didn’t even care if you were happy with him. I just wanted you for myself. If he comes after me, then it’s my problem, not yours. My priority is keeping you safe, you don’t have to worry about me. I guarantee I can take care of myself just fine. Rick may act all big and tuff, but he’s a f**kin’ pussy. No man should ever lay a hand on a woman, not ever. The fact that it’s the woman that I love, just makes me want to hurt him more.”

A smile formed in the corners of her mouth. “Every time you say that, it gives me goosebumps.”

“What? That I want to beat the shit out of your husband?”

She shook her head.

“That I can handle myself?”

She shook her head again.

I pretended to be thinking. “Oh, I know.” I started tickling her sides, sending her back down on the bed. When I stopped for a second, she stared up at me. “That I love you.”

This time she nodded.

“Well, it’s the truth.”

Our fingers intertwined together as we lay there looking at each other. Everything between us was so intense; so natural. “Are you sure this is what you want? I just don’t want to find out I was some fling for you. I do believe you love me, Conner. I think I’ve known for a long time. I’m just so afraid of being hurt again and feeling what I feel for you, it would hurt me more than Rick ever has.”

She was so fragile; like a porcelain doll that had been dropped from a shelf several times and then glued back together. Time was the only thing that was going to prove my devotion to her. “I don’t care how long it takes, but I will prove to you that I will never let you down.” I slid up on a pillow and pulled her into my chest, so we were spooning. “And don’t you dare even think about goin’ home tonight. The only place you’re goin to be is right here in my arms where you belong.”

“Where I feel the safest.” It wasn’t a question when she said it. I knew she meant it. I’d been her security blanket for months and she knew that I would never let anything happen to her.

“Get some sleep darlin’, cause the next couple months are goin’ to suck the life out of us.”

Just imagining having to wait to see her again sent pain into the pit of my stomach. There was no love left in the house she lived in, I wasn’t worried about that. It was the fact that she had to go there at all. If Miranda and Ty weren’t going through the drama that they were, I would bring her home with me and never let her leave, but they needed time to heal first.

I didn’t want to have to wait months, so while my beautiful future fell asleep in my arms, I stayed awake and played out a million scenarios in my head.

Running away.

It was always an option.

She would be safe.

We could be together.

It would mean giving up my family; giving up seeing my nieces and nephews growing up and sharing my happiness with everyone that I cared about. In all honesty I just couldn’t imagine giving that up.

Chapter 24

Amy

Kissing Conner goodbye was inexplicably hard for me to do. I wanted nothing more than to run back into his arms. He sat in his truck and watched me pull away out of the parking lot. As I drove away, I knew one thing.

I had to get my ass in gear and make shit happen.

I’d had enough of being the weak one. It was time to stand up for what I wanted and put a stop to the madness that had become my life.

I wasn’t perfect. I’d made both mistakes and horrible choices that led me to this exact moment in my life.

I’d gone to that hotel to tell Conner we had to stop seeing each other, but I left more in love then I’d ever been in my life. I could say we were through till I was blue in the face, but I knew it would be a lie. I woke up every single day needing one thing.

Conner.

The venomous devil of a man that I lived with wasn’t going to keep us apart. I still didn’t understand why he even cared. He’d probably had his penis inside of a different girl in every state. Rick was still a very handsome man. His blonde hair was always somehow disheveled and ladies loved his bright blue eyes, but I knew what he really looked like on the inside and he was a monster.

For the first twenty four hours of being without Conner, I think I watched the clock moving around. I sat alone in my house and waited for Rick’s telephone calls to check in on me. He’d had our Internet turned off and kept a landline phone hooked up for when his daughter came over. I wanted to call Conner and contemplated finding a pay phone somewhere to do it. Before we’d left the hotel, he told me to sit tight and he would talk to me before Rick got home. The next morning, before I opened the salon, a knock came to my door. I thought it was just the other girl coming into work, but when I opened the door and saw my handsome man standing there in an old t-shirt and backwards hat with the biggest smile I’d ever seen, I pulled him inside and threw myself into his arms. He was so sexy to me, with those dimples and white teeth. His tattoo that went down his arm drove me mad. I could ravage him every day and never get tired.

"Miss me a little bit?" Conner asked in between kisses.

I pulled him into the back room. "You have no idea."

I knew we’d only have minutes before the other girl came into work, so I grabbed his pants and got down on my knees. Conner didn’t argue with me considering he was already hard as rock. I took him right into my mouth and held the base of his shaft with my hand. He played with my hair and leaned back against the shelf. I looked up and saw him with his eyes closed and his head back. He was licking his lips and it turned me on to watch him reacting to me pleasuring him. My head bobbed as I sucked him vigorously, making sure to stroke his shaft with precise movements. The faster I moved, the more he controlled my head. When he tried to pull me off of him, I knew he was close. I kept my lips latched over him and took his heated release into my mouth, swallowing it down my throat. His salty essence lingered in my mouth as I stood up in front of him.

I was shocked when Conner leaned over and kissed me on the lips. He went even further by slipping his tongue into my mouth. I’d never had a man do that. When I pulled away he started laughing. "I love tasting myself on your tongue."

"You don’t think it’s gross?"

He chuckled. "I only do that with someone I love."

"But you said you never loved anyone before."

"I think you can figure out what I was implyin’ darlin’. I’ve experienced a lot of things, but none of them compare to every time I get to be with you. I dream about bein’ inside of you."