Finding Us (Finding #1)(46)
Author: Megan Smith

A few days after I found out about Marie I went home again and spoke with my father and Vivian. I told them I knew everything and that one day they would go to hell, it’s where they deserved to be. That was the end of any relationship I would ever have with them.

Knox helped me move Marie into an apartment in my building six months ago. We are working on building a mother daughter relationship. I felt like we had missed out on a lot of things and I don’t want to miss out on another minute. We’ve already lost so much.

Knox and I have been dating for about a year now and things were going great. It was Fourth of July weekend and we were heading back down to the shore house in South Carolina. No one knew what had happened between Knox and I and that was just fine with me. Things were the same with everyone and Ava was growing up to be a pretty little girl.

Knox was acting funny one night. We were going on a date to Brookgreen Gardens again at my request. That night, right under a great big weeping willow tree that was lit up with white lights, Knox got down on one knee and asked me to spend the rest of my life with him.

Six months later, Knox, me and the whole gang were on a tropical island getting married. Knox didn’t want to wait and I didn’t want a big wedding.

Knox walks into the bedroom and leans against the door frame to the baby’s room. Watching Knox with the baby brings me to tears every time. He’s been amazing these last few days since she made her arrival. The minute she was placed in his arms, he cried. We both cried for the loss of Knox’s unborn baby and for our new bundle of joy.

I watch as my gorgeous wife rocks our beautiful baby girl to sleep. Nevaeh Savanna Mitchell was born just a few days ago and she couldn’t be any more perfect. She was born with a head full of dark hair, a cute little nose, chubby little cheeks and pouty lips. Nevaeh, heaven spelled backwards, came into this world screaming. She gave her mom a run for her money making her appearance into this great big world.

Our honeymoon gave us something we weren’t expecting. Jasmine and I were out shopping one night when she suddenly stopped in the aisle with condoms, lube and pregnancy test along with other things.

She turns towards the pregnancy test with her eyes burrowed.

“Baby, what’s the matter?”

Jasmine reaches for her purse and digs her phone out. She taps it a few times and then her eyes widen.

“Knox, my period is late.”

We decided to stop using them during our honeymoon after we ran out of the ones we brought with us.

“Okay, let’s get a test.” I say nice and calmly.

“Okay.” Jasmine walks over to them and then looks back at me. “Which one do I get?”

I shrug my shoulders, “One of each?”

I didn’t go through this with Savanna, she just came over one night and told me we were having a baby.

“Okay.”

Jasmine throws one of each test in the cart and we leave. We never got what we came for. When we got home Jasmine and I went into the bathroom and took the test.

“The test says to wait five minutes and it’s best to take it in the morning.” Jasmine says when she throws the box in the trash can.

I glance over at the test, and I smile.

“What are you smiling at?” Jasmine asks as she comes over to look at the test that’s sitting on the sink.

When she sees that it’s positive she turns to me and cries tears of happiness. I’m nervous and scared that this is happening again.

“Baby, are you okay?” Jasmine reaches up and cups my face.

“Yeah.”

“You look a little pale. Maybe you should sit down.”

Jasmine pulls me to the bed and makes me sit while she runs back in the bathroom to take another test. She said that she just wants to make sure.

That night when we were lying in bed I confessed my fears to her that my life would repeat itself. She made love to me that night and washed the fears away. She promised me that everything would be okay and she would stay glued to my side.

Jasmine shifts, trying to get comfortable in the rocking chair. She winces as she does and I walk over to take the baby from her.

“Are you in a lot of pain? I can go grab your medicine.” I say as I cuddle Nevaeh to my chest. She takes a deep breath and I freeze, hoping she doesn’t wake up when I place her in her crib.

Jasmine sits in the chair, tears leaking from her eyes.

“What’s the matter baby?” I help her up from the chair and into my arms.

“I…I can’t even…I can’t even explain what I feel inside as I watch you with her, Knox.” She stutters out before burying herself into my neck.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Jasmine is my true soul mate. I thought I’d found that with Savanna but I was mistaken. I’ve let go of the past and moved on to bigger and better things. I’ve got my girls and that’s all I’m worried about.

Summer and Rex are off and on. You never know from one day to the next, I stay away from that relationship. Hopefully they’ll work it out sooner or later. Summer and I had a heart to heart while Jasmine and I were taking some time apart. I explained to her the story of my life and why Rex didn’t say anything to her about it before. While I think she still hates me I know deep down inside that she doesn’t or she wouldn’t have let her best friend marry me.

Rhea and Tanner are married and expecting their first child any day now. They are still living in Myrtle Beach, a few houses down from ours.

Cade, where do I even start? He’s still the same guy he was a few years ago, sleeping with a new girl almost every night. I’m surprised he hasn’t caught anything or knocked someone up by now. I love the guy but damn.

Jeremy is having a hell of a time with getting custody of Ava, who is five now. That little girl is going to be some heartbreaker in a few years. Jeremy’s ex got involved in some pretty heavy drugs and he doesn’t want Ava growing up like that. I don’t blame him; no one should have to grow up like that. So for now they are taking it one day at a time.

I help Jasmine back into our bedroom in our new brown stone that we purchased when we first got married. Neither of us wanted to live in an apartment any longer. Our house has four bedrooms and two baths with plenty of space for our growing family.

Jasmine leans against the bed looking exhausted. I stroll over to her and reach for the hem of her shirt. I pull it off and then help her take her yoga pants off. She’s still recovering from the delivery and dealing with the pain but for some reason she refuses to take the pain pills. When she’s down to her bra and panties I pull back the covers and help her in. I turn the monitor on so that we can hear and see our little girl while she rests. I take my clothes off and walk over to my side of the bed and climb in beside her.