Night Fury: First Act (Night Fury #1)(18)
Author: Belle Aurora

My brow furrows. I blink and whisper, “I don’t care.”

I don’t care. Not even an iota. I don’t care if Clark is dating Michelle.

I’m not in love with Clark.

“I’m sorry, Clark. I don’t care.” I look over at him and my heart skips a beat.

The hurt written on his face is impossible for him to mask. His brows rise as he mutters, “Wow. Ouch.”

There is one thing I feel I need to do to prove this sudden epiphany.

“Kiss me, Clark.”

His brows almost hit his hairline. He sputters, “W-what?”

I shrug. “Kiss me. Please.” When all he does is blink and look at me like I’ve lost my mind, I add in complete seriousness, “I need you to do this. It’s the only way I’ll know for sure. Please, kiss me.”

He swallows, leans forward and stops a hairs breadth away from my lips. His breath warms me as he whispers, “I’ve wanted to do this for years.” Then his lips are on mine.

This is not the gentle kiss I had imagined almost a million times over. This kiss is desperate and forceful, as if he is begging me to love him. And it makes my heart hurt.

My mouth opens to his, and the tip of his tongue darts out to coax mine.

It’s pleasant. And warm. And inviting—in a very platonic way. He tastes like cola and smells sweet, like apples. But…

“Wait.”

Clark’s body stiffens as he pulls away from me. He cringes. “Was it bad? It was bad, wasn’t it?”

“No! It wasn’t. It was very nice, Clark, but…”

I try to find the words. Luckily for me, Clark fills the missing spaces easily enough. He sighs, “But it’s not enough.”

A feeling of helplessness pulses through me. I feel like an ass**le. “I’m so sorry, Clark. I wouldn’t have asked you to do that if I didn’t need to know. I would never lead you on.”

He nods. “I know. And in a way, I’m glad we got this out of the way. Now we know.” His smile doesn’t reach his eyes. “It is what it is.”

Without another word spoken, he stands, places his hands in his pockets and starts to walk back to the kitchen entrance.

I whisper to his retreating back, “I’ll always love you, Clark, just not in the way you need me to.” Wide awake and needing a distraction, I look over to the barn and decide to lose myself for a little longer before I call it a night.

***

If you were outside looking in, Mirage would not look like a threat. With only two desks, a few whiteboards, filing cabinets up the wazoo, printers and fax machines, it would look about as dangerous as an office anywhere in the world.

Looks can be so very deceiving.

Mirage may look identical to any other office space, but it is the nerve centre of a powerful operation; one I don’t fully understand myself. A fax, email or phone call to Mirage will end a life in a matter of days. Chances are that life will meet an end by my own hand.

Such is life, I suppose.

The first thing I did when I made my way inside was turn on the radio and put the volume up high enough to make my eardrums ring.

Music and songs are strange things. They can take you on a journey so far away, so deep into your mind you don’t realise you’ve been taken away until the very last note sounds and you’re brought tumbling back to reality.

Music is a beautiful thing.

So is communion wine.

When you take music and add communion wine, you’re in for a good time.

Sitting my butt on the floor with my back against Clark’s desk, I open the bottle of wine and take a hefty swig. Then another. And another after that. With the music playing and the wine warming my belly, I lean my head back on the desk and close my eyes. I try to see the good in what happened tonight, but hurting Clark in the meantime sucks.

I would never hurt anyone willingly. As I think about that statement, I chuckle to myself.

I’ll kill a man, but the thought of hurting my friend’s feelings makes me ill?

Oh, man. I am all sorts of screwed up.

When the bottle of wine is pulled from my hands, I jerk upright in shock and open my eyes. Marco sits close to me and tilts the bottle of wine up, taking a swig. Snatching the stereo remote from my other hand, he turns down the music to a barely audible level and apologises, “Sorry I f**ked up your dress.”

I watch him through narrowed brows for a moment before snatching back the wine, taking a sip and responding, “It’s okay. It was only water, and it was as much my fault as it was yours.”

“You looked like you were about to cry.”

I sniff indignantly and lie, “I don’t cry.”

Marco’s lip twitches. “Not sure I believe that. Everyone cries.”

Raising a brow, I ask, “Even you?”

He nods once, firmly. “Even me. Haven’t for a long time, but yeah, I’ve cried.” I snort and he asks, “What? You’ve never cried before?”

I roll my eyes. “Of course I’ve cried; I just never thought you would admit a weakness so freely.”

“Weakness? Oh, no, honey, you’ve got it all wrong. I supplied the answer willingly. Freely. If you think that’s a weakness, you’re looking at it all wrong. I’m not ashamed. I have nothing to hide. I’m unaffected. I took all the power out of that weakness when I told you about it. Now try to use it against me sometime. It has no effect on me.” He smirks. “I win.”

This point is valid. And I approve. My brows rise in appreciation, and also because I may be slightly tipsy.

Touché.

The wine I’ve drunk sloshes and splashes against my brain, making my head fuzzy. I blurt out, “I kissed Clark tonight.”

Pausing mid-swig, he stills a moment before taking a mouthful of wine. “Well, I guess it was bound to happen. The guy carries a torch for you; that much is obvious.” He makes a face. “Coming onto you while his girl’s inside though—”

I cut him off with, “I asked him to kiss me.”

He doesn’t respond, just lifts the bottle to drink again.

The silence makes me edgy. So edgy, I ramble, “I loved him for a while. It was years ago though. Then I fell in love with someone else; someone I shouldn’t have. Things turned to shit real fast for me, and I forgot about him. That should’ve been my first clue. You don’t forget about people you love, right?” He opens his mouth to respond, but I’m on a roll. “So I thought if he kissed me and I felt it, it would be worth it. Because if I felt the zing, he’d be someone I could love.” Marco looks straight ahead, not giving away a thing with his expression. His face remains devoid.