Dune Messiah (Page 69)

All it required was water… and love.

Life changed those irascible wastes into shapes of grace and movement, he thought. That was the message of the desert. Contrast stunned him with realization. He wanted to turn to the aides massed in the sietch entrance, shout at them: If you need something to worship, then worship life – all life, every last crawling bit of it! We’re all in this beauty together!

They wouldn’t understand. In the desert, they were endlessly desert. Growing things performed no green ballet for them.

He clenched his fists at his sides, trying to halt the vision. He wanted to flee from his own mind. It was a beast come to devour him! Awareness lay in him, sodden, heavy with all the living it had sponged up, saturated with too many experiences.

Desperately, Paul squeezed his thoughts outward.

Stars!

Awareness turned over at the thought of all those stars above him – an infinite volume. A man must be half mad to imagine he could rule even a teardrop of that volume. He couldn’t begin to imagine the number of subjects his Imperium claimed.

Subjects? Worshippers and enemies, more likely. Did any among them see beyond rigid beliefs? Where was one man who’d escaped the narrow destiny of his prejudices? Not even an Emperor escaped. He’d lived a ‘take everything’ life, tried to create a universe in his own image. But the exultant universe was breaking across him at last with its silent waves.

I spit on Dune! he thought. I give it my moisture!

This myth he’d made out of intricate movements and imagination, out of moonlight and love, out of prayers older than Adam, and gray cliffs and crimson shadows, laments and rivers of martyrs – what had it come to at last? When the waves receded, the shores of Time would spread out there clean, empty, shining with infinite grains of memory and little else. Was this the golden genesis of man?

Sand scuffed against rocks told him that the ghola had joined him.

"You’ve been avoiding me today, Duncan," Paul said.

"It’s dangerous for you to call me that," the ghola said.

"I know."

"I… came to warn you, m’Lord."

"I know."

The story of the compulsion Bijaz had put on him poured from the ghola then.

"Do you know the nature of the compulsion?" Paul asked.

"Violence."

Paul felt himself arriving at a place which had claimed him from the beginning. He stood suspended. The Jihad had seized him, fixed him onto a glidepath from which the terrible gravity of the Future would never release him.

"There’ll be no violence from Duncan," Paul whispered.

"But, Sire… "

"Tell me what you see around us," Paul said.

"M’Lord?"

"The desert – how is it tonight?"

"Don’t you see it?"

"I have no eyes, Duncan."

"But… "

"I’ve only my vision," Paul said, "and wish I didn’t have it. I’m dying of prescience, did you know that, Duncan?"

"Perhaps… what you fear won’t happen," the ghola said.

"What? Deny my own oracle? How can I when I’ve seen it fulfilled thousands of time? People call it a power, a gift. It’s an affliction! It won’t let me leave my life where I found it!"

"M’Lord," the ghola muttered, "I… it isn’t… young master, you don’t… I… " He fell silent.

Paul sensed the ghola’s confusion, said: "What’d you call me, Duncan?"

"What? What I… for a moment…"

"You called me ‘young master.’ "

"I did, yes."

"That’s what Duncan always called me." Paul reached out, touched the ghola’s face. "Was that part of your Tleilaxu training?"

"No."

Paul lowered his hand. "What, then?"

"It came from… me."

"Do you serve two masters?"

"Perhaps."

Chapter Twenty-Three

"Free yourself from the ghola, Duncan."

"How?"

"You’re human. Do a human thing."

"I’m a ghola!"

"But your flesh is human. Duncan’s in there."

"Something’s in there."

"I care not how you do it," Paul said, "but you’ll do it."

"You’ve foreknowledge?"

"Foreknowledge be damned!" Paul turned away. His vision hurtled forward now, gaps in it, but it wasn’t a thing to be stopped.

"M’Lord, if you’ve -"

"Quiet!" Paul held up a hand. "Did you hear that?"

"Hear what, m’Lord?"

Paul shook his head. Duncan hadn’t heard it. Had he only imagined the sound? It’d been his tribal name called from the desert – far away and low: "Usul… Uuuussssuuuullll… "

"What is it, m’Lord?"

Paul shook his head. He felt watched. Something out there in the night shadows knew he was here. Something? No – someone.

"It was mostly sweet," he whispered, "and you were the sweetest of all."

"What’d you say, m’Lord?"

"It’s the future," Paul said.

That amorphous human universe out there had undergone a spurt of motion, dancing to the tune of his vision. It had struck a powerful note then. The ghost-echoes might endure.

"I don’t understand, m’Lord," the ghola said.

"A Fremen dies when he’s too long from the desert," Paul said. "They call it the ‘water sickness.’ Isn’t that odd?"

"That’s very odd."

Paul strained at memories, tried to recall the sound of Chani breathing beside him in the night. Where is there comfort? he wondered. All he could remember was Chani at breakfast the day they’d left for the desert. She’d been restless, irritable.