Letting Go (Mitchell Family #1)(21)
Author: Jennifer Foor

She smiled and looked down for second. When her eyes lifted to meet mine she bit her lip. “Sounds like a plan.” She started to scoot over and grab the handle to open the door.

I grabbed her arm. “Wait. You forgot my kiss.”

She kept climbing out of the car and turned around once she was out. “I didn’t forget. I just want you to wait for it.” She closed the door and walked over to her car. I laughed at her comment and watched her cute little ass walking away. Someone like Savanna could make me crazy.

Chapter 12

Savanna

I don’t think the reality of what I had done actually set in until I started my car. Colt was following me to the dorms, so I had to pull out first. Flashes of what had happened over the past couple of days flooded my mind. I wanted to feel ashamed for what I had done and the things that I had said. I knew it wouldn’t be easy if I ever decided to move on, and I didn’t purposely hook up with the one and only person Ty looked up to in the word on purpose.

It just happened.

I was attracted to him from the start. Anyone that wasn’t, was a fool. His calm personality and southern drawl made him irresistible. Not to mention that the guy knew his way around the bedroom. He did things to me that I never knew could be done and when he was all but spent; he turned around and did them again.

Tears started to run down my face and I just let myself cry. I needed windshield wipers for my own face, but never made an effort to wipe them away. I loved Ty, so much that it hurt, but Colt had awakened something deep down inside of me, something that I had lost so long ago.

I kept looking in the rearview mirror, almost hoping that he had decided pursuing something with me was a big mistake. Maybe if he made the decision I could just let it go and try to move on. Seeing his truck close behind my car made me realize just how real all of this was. This connection that we were feeling was mutual and it scared us both, but neither of us could walk away from it.

When I finally pulled up at the dorm, Colt parked next to me. I looked over and saw him wink before he noticed my wet eyes. He jumped out of the truck and rushed to the driver’s side of my car. “Darlin’ what is the matter? Do you want me to head back to the farm?”

I didn’t even hesitate. “No! Please Colt. I don’t want you to leave. I swear. I just needed to have an emotional moment.” I admitted.

“Are you sure you just don’t want to go out some other time? I won’t be mad Savanna.”

I reached my arms around his waist and let my head lean against his chest. “I don’t want to be away from you yet. Please don’t leave.”

His hands rubbed my back. “I will be here as long as you want me to stay.”

“Thank you.” I pulled away and grabbed his hand. “Why don’t you come up to my room so I can change.” I suggested.

He walked along with me. “Do I get to watch?”

I gave him a smile. “Maybe.” I giggled.

It took me about five minutes to get changed and I opted to do it in the bathroom instead of in front of Colt. It wasn’t that I cared if he saw me naked, obviously he had already seen everything I had to offer, but I still wanted just a little bit of privacy.

When I walked into my room, I saw him laying on my bed looking at pictures that I had on my nightstand. Of course all of them were of me and Ty and I felt awful for not thinking about them sooner. “I um…”

“Savanna, don’t even go there. You love him. I get it.” He said without even changing his expression.

“I don’t want you to feel like I am using you. I would never do that.” I confessed.

“Sugar, I haven’t thought that for a darn minute. Stop worrying your pretty little self over it. In fact if you want we can stop by the hospital.”

I was shocked that he wanted to include seeing Ty on our day together. Part of me felt like it was wrong and inconsiderate, but the other part realized how thoughtful Colt was being of my feelings.

“There is a restaurant near the hospital. I would like to just stop by for a second if it is really okay with you.” I shook my head and reconsidered. “Never mind, maybe it isn’t a good idea.”

Colt sat up and pulled me into his arms. “Savanna, I want you to do what you want to do. I don’t regret being with you for a minute, but I know this is a big step for you. We can go there and I can wait outside. It doesn’t bother me or even make me the slightest bit frustrated. I love the kid too you know.”

Why did he always know what to say?

“Well, I would like to just stop by. I usually spend the whole day there, so it would be nice if I just say hello real quick.”

He stood up and grabbed my hand. “Shall we go then?”

I squeezed his hand. “We shall.”

Colt

Savanna had a bunch on her mind, I understood more than anyone about it. Her decisions over the weekend had caused her to have a painful reality today. I hadn’t thought that today would be the first weekday she had not spent at the hospital. That is why I had to offer to stop by. I wanted her to feel like she could still be there for Ty, even if we were spending time together. Above everything else that happened sexually between us, she had become a very good friend. I had told her secrets and shared things with her that I never told anyone else. I wanted her to know that I trusted her.

Pulling up at the hospital was harder than I first thought it would be. Savanna didn’t speak the whole way there, but she did hold my hand for the ride. We had decided on taking her car because she had air conditioning and the truck did not.

“Do you want me to wait here for you?” I asked kindly.

She looked down at her lap and then finally over to me. “Actually, I think I want you to come. I need to be able to do this. I need to get over this guilt I am feeling, because I know for a fact that I don’t want to stop whatever this is. Does that make sense?” I asked.

“Sure it does Savanna.” He lifted my hand to his lips. “I am ready when you are Darlin’.”

We walked into the hospital hand in hand, but once we reached the elevator Savanna let go. I didn’t think too much of it. Hell, she had probably made friends with all of the nurses on Ty’s floor. They didn’t know I was his cousin, not that it would make any bit of a difference who I was if they saw us walking up together holding hands.

I walked next to Savanna as we made our way to Ty’s room. She nodded and waved to a few nurses as we walked by them.

Ty looked exactly how he had the last time I had been in. He lay there hooked up to all kinds of tubes and devices. The constant beeping let us know just how serious his condition was. Savanna stood at his bedside but never touched him. I could tell she was crying but I stood back and let her have the time she needed. When her body finally collapsed over his, I felt the pain in my gut. I had been stupid to assume this was a good idea. It was like I was flashing it in front of his face or something.