Letting Go (Mitchell Family #1)(28)
Author: Jennifer Foor

When it was obvious that she was gonna cry until she had no tears left, I repositioned myself to lay back on a pillow, while she was sprawled out still clinging tight to my chest. I stroked her hair until I heard the last sniffle sound coming from her nose and then I let myself finally fall asleep.

The next morning Savanna was still asleep on my chest. I half expected her to have gotten up and slept on the couch, as upset as she was. Part of me felt like I had gotten her into this awful situation and felt like she could never forgive me for it. Once she finally started to stir she looked up at me.

“Hi.” She whispered.

“How you doin’ Darlin’?” I asked.

I felt her arms move as she shrugged, but noticed that she never unwrapped them from around my body. Her face came close to my chest and I felt her soft lips pucker up against me. “I am so sorry I got upset last night. It wasn’t your fault.” She brought her hands up and propped up her head with them. Even with her elbows kind of grinding into me, I said nothing. “I chose to sleep with you, I mean, I wanted to sleep with you Colt. Maybe the alcohol helped make that decision at first, but obviously I enjoyed it. Just like I enjoyed it last night.”

She turned over on her back and covered her face with her hands. “I don’t think I will ever be able to let go of Ty completely, but I can’t just linger around waiting for something that may never happen. He may never wake up and I know that. I’m so sick of crying and feeling like my life is over. The past week has been so eye opening for me. Spending time with you makes me happy. It’s just when your aunt walked in last night, it was like I actually was doing what she accused me of doing months ago. It hit me right in the gut. Technically, I am not cheating on her son, but you have to understand that sometimes it sure feels like I am. I mean, I haven’t been with anyone else besides you and Ty.”

She started to talk again, but began to well up. If I were a stranger she wouldn’t be feeling this way. I knew it was hard, but we were adults. We enjoyed being together, and at the moment, there wasn’t much else to do.

“You don’t have to explain Savanna. I kinda figured that you hadn’t been with anyone else. I don’t know if it means anything comin’ from me, but you are not cheatin’ on him. I have said this before. If you want to stop hangin’ out, or just keep things plutonic, I am totally fine with that.” I replied.

“That’s just it. I don’t want to stop seeing you. You are all I have thought about since you came back to town.” Her head fell down on my chest and her hand ran up and down it. “I don’t want to hurt anymore and I don’t hurt when I am with you, in fact I feel the opposite.” She confessed.

“You don’t have to hide how you’re feelin’ from me. I’m a big boy. If you ask my opinion, I would say you are just tryin’ to get through the hardest part of your life. If being with me makes you feel better, than I am not complainin’. If you need to cry, then let it out. Hell, I wouldn’t expect anything less.” I kissed the top of her head again. “Just so you know, I thought about you a bunch this week as well. Now how about we drop all this serious talk and get our suits on. It is supposed to get hot as heck today and I plan on spending my time in the swimmin’ hole with a pretty lady at my side, if she will accompany me of course.”

“I’m sorry I keep doing this.” She confessed.

“You have been with the same person for the last five years. You do not have to apologize for being confused. I completely understand.” I added before kissing her head and sliding myself off the bed. “Now how about that date?”

She sat up and looked at me. Her eyes gazing below my waist. I cocked a smile when I noticed and finally caught her attention. “How about we have breakfast?” She inquired.

Just to mess with her head, I put my hands on my hips. “What are you hungry for?” I teased.

She bit her lip, but did not stop staring at my naked body. The sheet had fallen down over her br**sts and I couldn’t help looking myself. Savanna got up and sat on the bed in front of me. Her hands grabbed around my ass and pulled me close so that her face was even with my stomach. She kissed it gently. “I can’t get enough of you. I don’t know what you did to me, but I feel like I am under a spell.”

Her lips drug over my belly button, while her hands slid down my hips. I could feel my erection beginning with just her being where she was. “Sorry Darlin’, these hands don’t perform magic.”

“I beg to differ. Your smell is tantalizing. I lust for your strong hands to touch me.” She grabbed my hand and kissed the palm of it. “You are the most handsome man I have ever laid eyes on.” She kissed the edge of my hip bone. “When we touch, it is electrifying, but when you are inside of me, I forget about all of the pain in my life. I love how you can make me forget.”

I pulled her up to a standing position. “You don’t have to forget Savanna, but I am glad I can make you feel better. I do aim to please, you know.”

I reached down and kissed her softly on the lips. She didn’t know how sexy she was with that gorgeous bed head and since I already had a semi erection from her touching me, I pulled away. “Let’s get you some food so we can enjoy our day” I suggested.

I had enough of the serious talk for the day, but I knew it wouldn’t be the last. I got that she needed it and I wouldn’t deny her answers, but the fact was that I was the last person to give her advice about relationships. I couldn’t deny my attraction to her or the fact that I cared about the girl, but I couldn’t let myself become attached to her. I knew I was only here temporary, so taking our relationship to a new level just wasn’t feasible. There was no denying that if things were different, I could see myself wanting more.

After grabbing some swimming trunks, I headed into the kitchen and started making us egg sandwiches. Savanna came out in a pair of shorts and a bikini top. The top was yellow and blue, and I could only assume that the bottoms matched. She had her hair up in a ponytail and a pair of flip flops on her feet.

When she saw me looking at her body she smiled and leaned against the counter. “See anything you like?”

“Darlin’ there isn’t anything about you that I don’t like.” Well there was one thing, but having her without baggage was impossible and it wasn’t something I was willing to discuss.

“Keep talking and breakfast might have to wait.” She joked.