Library of Souls (Page 41)

Sharon wasn’t swayed. “I’ll go to the corner and mind my own business,” he said. “That’s my best offer.” He went and perched himself on Nim’s one-armed chair and began to whistle and clean his fingernails.

Emma helped me sit up, and we pressed our foreheads together and spoke in whispers. For a moment I was so overwhelmed by her closeness that all the questions flooding my brain vanished, and there was only her hand touching my face, brushing my cheek, my jaw.

“You had me so frightened,” Emma said. “I really thought I’d lost you.”

“I’m fine,” I said. I knew I hadn’t been, but it embarrassed me to be worried over.

“You weren’t. Not at all. You should apologize to the doctor.”

“I know. I was just freaked out. And I’m sorry if I scared you.”

She nodded and then looked away. Her eyes drifted briefly to the wall, and when they returned, a new hardness glittered in them.

“I like to think I’m strong,” she said. “That the reason I’m free right now instead of Bronwyn or Millard or Enoch is that I’m strong enough to be depended upon. That’s always been me—the one who could take anything. Like there’s a pain sensor inside me that’s not switched on. I can block out awful things and get on with it, do what needs doing.” Her hand found mine atop the sheets. Our fingers knotted together, automatic. “But when I think about you—how you looked when they pulled you off the ground, after those people …”

She let out a shaky breath and shook her head, as if chasing away the memory. “I just break.”

“Me, too,” I said, remembering the pain I felt whenever I saw Emma hurt, the terror that gripped me every time she was in danger. “Me, too.” I squeezed her hand and searched for something more to say, but she spoke first.

“I need you to promise me something.”

“Anything,” I said.

“I need you not to die.”

I cracked a smile. Emma didn’t. “You can’t,” she said. “If I lose you, the rest isn’t worth a damn.”

I slid my arms around her, pulled her tight against me. “I’ll do my best.”

“That’s not good enough,” she whispered. “Promise me.”

“Okay. I won’t die.”

“Say, ‘I promise.’ ”

“I promise. You say it, too.”

“I promise,” she said.

“Ahh,” Sharon said airily from the corner, “the sweet lies lovers tell …”

We broke apart. “You’re not supposed to be listening!” I said.

“That was long enough,” he said, dragging his chair loudly across the floor and planting it next to the bed. “We have important things to discuss. Namely, the apology you owe me.”

“For what?” I said, irritated.

“Impugning my character and reputation.”

“Every word was true,” I said. “This loop is full of scumbags and creeps, and you are a money-driven lout.”

“With not an ounce of sympathy for the plight of his own people,” Emma added. “Though, again, thank you for saving us.”

“Around here you learn to look out for number one,” Sharon said. “Everyone’s got a story. A plight. Everyone wants something from you, and they’re almost always lying. So yes, I remain unapologetically self-directed and profit motivated. But I deeply resent your suggestion that I would have dealings of any kind with someone who trades in peculiar flesh. Just because I’m a capitalist doesn’t mean I’m a black-hearted bastard.”

“And how could we have known that?” I said. “We had to beg and bribe you not to abandon us at the dock, remember?”

He shrugged. “That was before I realized who you are.”

I glanced at Emma, then pointed to my chest. “Who I am?”

“You, my boy. Mr. Bentham’s been waiting a long time to speak to you. Since the day I first hung my shingle as a boatman—forty-odd years ago. Bentham ensured me safe passage in and out of the Acre if I promised to keep an eye out for you while I did it. I was to bring you to see him. And now, finally, I’ve kept my end of the bargain.”

“You must have me confused with someone else,” I said. “I’m nobody.”

“He said you’d be able to speak to hollowgast. How many peculiars do you know who can do that?”

“But he’s only sixteen,” Emma said. “Really sixteen. So how can—”

“That’s why it took me a while to put it all together,” said Sharon. “I had to go see Mr. Bentham about it personally, which is where I was when you two ran away. You don’t fit the description, see. All these years I’ve been keeping watch for an old man.”

“An old man,” I said.

“Right.”

“Who can talk to hollows.”

“As I said.”

Emma tightened her grip on my hand and we exchanged a look—no, it couldn’t be—and then I swung my legs out of bed, charged with new energy. “I want to talk to this Bentham guy. Right now.”

“He’ll see you when he’s ready,” Sharon said.

“No,” I said. “Now.”

As it happened, at that very moment there was a knock at the door. Sharon opened it to find Nim. “Mr. Bentham will meet our guests for tea in one hour,” he said, “in the library.”

“We can’t wait an hour,” I said. “We’ve wasted too much time here already.”