Nova and Quinton: No Regrets (Nova #3)(34)
Author: Jessica Sorensen

“I…” I stop in the middle of the road and turn around with him, because he doesn’t let go of me, and he stares at a lanky guy with brown hair who’s wearing a bright-yellow coat. The guy is walking toward us and he’s got this look on his face that I can’t quite place. Like he’s about to start some trouble and is glad about it, maybe.

“Hey man,” the guy says to Tristan with a chin nod. “You bailed so quickly after class I didn’t get a chance to discuss that thing we were talking about.”

I feel Tristan tense beside me and his arm suddenly falls to his side as he puts some space between us. “Yeah, I actually have a doctor’s appointment so I have to hurry my ass up.”

“You do?” I say, relieved he’s finally going to go get himself checked out. His cough’s gone away, but he’s been extra tired lately and it has me worried.

Tristan nods, glancing at me and then back at yellow coat guy. “Can I catch up with you later, man?” he asks edgily.

“Sure, but we’re still doing that thing, right?” the guy asks, discreetly glancing at me, then pressing a look at Tristan.

“Yeah, sure, of course,” Tristan replies nonchalantly.

The guy looks at me again with a wary expression on his face and it feels like he’s trying to read my vibe or something. “You cool?” he asks me.

I know he’s asking if I’m cool with drugs, which makes me want to shove Tristan down and beat some sense into him.

“Hey, let’s talk later, okay?” Tristan says through gritted teeth.

The guy nods, shuffling back onto the sidewalk, his eyes fastened on me until he turns around near the trees in the campus yard. Tristan hurries and grabs my sleeve to pull me out of the way as a car rounds the corner a little too fast.

After I get safely onto the sidewalk and start heading toward the apartment again, I ask, “So who was that?”

He shrugs, putting his hands in his coat pockets. “His name’s Jazz. He’s in my philosophy class.”

“Jazz? That’s an interesting name.”

“About as interesting as Nova.” He playfully prods my side with his elbow.

The ice on the ground crunches under my shoes as I walk quietly with my head down, deliberating if I want to ask him, if I want to take a risk that I might be wrong and piss him off. But I need to know, so…

“What did he mean by if I was cool?” I ask, even though I know. I’m hoping I’m wrong, though.

Tristan doesn’t answer right away. “Nothing. Jazz is just weird like that.”

I’m not buying it at all. “Tristan, you’re not…” I blow out a stressed breath and then tip my chin up to meet his eyes. “You’re not thinking about doing drugs, are you?” I search his eyes for a sign that he might be doing them already, but they look clear, haze-free, although they do carry a little annoyance.

“Wow, I’m glad you have so much faith in me,” he says, his tone as sharp as the icicles dangling from the rain gutters on the houses around us.

“I do have faith in you,” I try to assure him. “It’s just that that Jazz guy and you seemed to be… I don’t know… talking in code.”

“That’s just how he is.” Tristan steps to the side, moving away from me. “Jesus, Nova, I can’t believe you’re accusing me of anything. I’ve been good, you know, despite how f**king boring as shit this normal stuff is.”

That right there is what makes me nervous. The fact that he thinks normal life is boring—that he’s bored.

“I’m sorry,” I say, feeling bad, but also really concerned. “I just worry about you—about everyone, really. And I’ve been really stressed out over this Delilah thing.”

He glances at me from the corner of his eyes. “Why are you worried about Delilah?”

“I told you already, because she’s missing,” I reply, hopping over a patch of snow blocking the entry to the apartment complex. “And because of how things were the last time I saw her.”

“But you weren’t friends with her anymore, really. I mean, not since she moved to Vegas and you barely talked to her.”

“We were once, though, and I still care about her.” I try to explain how I feel, but I can tell he doesn’t get it.

“I’m sure she’ll be okay,” he says unconvincingly. “Disappearing is just part of the life of a crackhead, mainly because we’ll do anything and go anywhere to get our next bump.” He gazes off into the distance as if he’s remembering his time spent in that world. “It’s all that matters to us.”

“Don’t say us.” I loop my arm through his to bring his attention back to reality. “You’re not part of that group anymore.”

He nods, but there’s something in his eyes I don’t like. “Yeah, I know.”

“And you’re going to stay away from that group, right?” I ask as we hike across the parking lot and to the sidewalk.

“Of course, Mother.” He flashes me a grin, breaking the tension between us. “So, Mom, can you give me a ride to the doctor’s later today?”

“Why yes, Son,” I joke back, and then stick out my tongue. “You know, I should take it offensively that you call me Mom all the time when you don’t like your mom very much.”

“It’s not that I don’t like her,” he says, stopping as we reach the doorway to the stair entrance of our apartment. “It’s that my parents don’t like me.”

“How do you figure?” I ask as he opens the door and I step inside, slipping my arm out of his.

He shrugs, the door slamming shut behind us. “Basic observation.” We start up the stairs side by side. “Like for instance how they completely and utterly ignored me after Ryder died.”

“I’m sure they didn’t ignore you,” I tell him. “They were probably just distracted by their own pain, like my mom was right after my dad died.”

“Well, distracted or ignored, it was still hard, you know. I mean, it was like I was a ghost, and trust me, I tried to do everything to get their attention. Rebelled. Let my grades drop.” He pauses as we approach the second floor. “Did drugs.”

“Is that why you started?” I open the door and enter the hallway lined with numbered doors.

He shakes his head, following me down the hall. “Nah. I started getting high when I was fourteen. I just started doing more drugs after Ryder died and was a little more obvious about using.” He fidgets uncomfortably, tucking his hands up into his sleeves. “I guess you could say I pretty much stopped caring about stuff, just like they did.”