Reject Me (Kin #5)(36)
Author: Jennifer Foor

“What do you want me to say? This is a mistake.”

Before I could pull away from him anymore, Jamey grabbed me and held me still. “No. Please don’t do this. Don’t make me leave.”

“I won’t.” That much I was sure of. “I suppose if you were carryin’ some disease I would have already contracted it, right?”

He gave me a disgusted look. “Come on, Pey. I was safe, and if you’re worried I just told you that it’s been a long ass time since I was with anyone. It’s just been you. I swear.”

Regardless of what was at stake I sat up straight on top of him and grabbed a chuck of his hair with both hands and tugged. With a fistful of what was once his prized possession I stared into those brown eyes as if I were peering into his soul. “Close your eyes.”

“What?”

“I’m serious. Close your eyes.” I waited and watched as Jamey reluctantly did as he was asked. Then I looked at his face, seemingly innocent, but harboring demons. I needed to be free of him, of it all, except the idea of that made me feel like I wanted to give up completely. I have to find reprieve, even if it were in the arms of my deceiver.

My lips pressed over his passionately, painfully, with so much regret. I closed my eyes, not willing to see those eyes that knew me so well. He was my love, my illness, and my greatest mistake, but without him my heart was empty.

All I wanted was to feel alive again. I needed to know what it felt like to give myself to him once more, no matter what the consequences were. He was my weakness, and I his. Together we had passion, apart we were nothing.

The second time he entered me I was fully aware of what was going on. I’d had time to reconsider. He’d given me a way out, and perhaps I should have taken it. Still, feeling him inside of me gave me power, but I wanted more. Our lips clashed together. His tongue found mine, and as they mingled together I found myself wanting to cry out in passionate bliss. Our pace increased, while Jamey clung tightly to the underneath of my cheeks. He guided me over his c**k with a sporadic rhythm. Each time he thrusted deep it would tease my clit. I leaned back and held onto my tits, watching him watch me. As I climaxed for the first time something happened to me. I felt compelled to give Jamey something that he would never forget. I lifted myself off of him, leaving him wondering what was going on for only a second. The moment I scooted down and took his full-on erection between my lips his reaction changed. I felt him grabbing my hair as I bobbed up and down, massaging his balls with my fingernails. I started rocking his dick with both my hand and my lips. The harder I sucked the faster I moved my hand. Saliva ran down his shaft, lubricating it after I’d licked off all of my own juices. This was my cock, and he needed to know what he was about to lose out on. Jamey’s tug on my hair let me know he was about to blow his load. I pulled away and licked the tip, feeling as if I was in control of what was happening between us. He pulled me back onto his lap, noticing how much wetter I’d become from sucking him off. He licked my bottom lip before sucking it hard into his mouth. I could feel the blood rushing to it suddenly as he let it go. Our tongues met outside of our mouths leading to a powerful kiss. I began rocking back and forth again, feeling fulfilled both inside and out. I reached around and dug my nails into Jamey’s back as I started to climax again. Our mouths stayed together as I cried out in passion. Sweaty, and out of breath, we sat there holding each other, like we knew that it was the end.

I was going to regret it in the morning that I was sure of, but in that very moment all I could think about was never letting him go.

Chapter 20

Jamey

I was at a loss for words. After battling my own conscience over what I should do, I’d managed to end up standing outside of Peyton’s families beach house. I should have known better than to walk up to that window she used to sneak me in, and knock on it. My hands were shaking as I watched the image of her approaching that window. When she let me inside I was prepared for anything, but not willing to walk away until I told her something that had been burning a hole in my heart for too long.

Just a little while later we were tangled together, naked, and exhausted. Peyton had let me be with her, and it meant more than she’d ever know. What sucked was that it made it harder for me to be able to accept that we were over. Trust was the biggest issue for us, and without that I had no idea how we’d ever work out, but I had to at least try. I couldn’t give up on something that made me feel so right. I had to find a way to prove to her that I’d never take her for granted again.

Sometime in the middle of the night we both found ourselves awake. Before any words were spoken we’d already become engulfed in each other again. Just before we came together for the second time I sat her up and brought her lips to mine, holding them there while I spoke. She needed to know once and for all that I was ready to be the man she wanted me to be. Maybe it was too late, but I was willing to try anything.

“Baby, wait. There’s somethin’ that I need to say.”

She moved back enough to be able to look at me. “What is it? Is there somethin’ else you didn’t tell me.”

“Yes.”

“Don’t do this to me.” She shoved me away and moved to other side of the bed.

“It’s nothin’ bad. Come back over here. I need you to look at me when I tell you. Please, it’s important.”

Slowly she made her way to the middle of the bed where I sat. I grabbed her hand and pulled it up to my lips, tenderly kissing her skin. “I’m listening,” she whispered.

It was hard for me to find the courage to talk about something so serious. I’d never had to do it before, but knowing what I was about to lose was making me desperate and able to do things that I never thought possible, to feel things that I never knew I would. “Peyton, I’ve been a f**kin’ fool. I never should have takin’ you for granted, but it happened, and I’m so sorry that I hurt you. You’ve got to believe me when I say that. I came here tonight because I couldn’t breathe knowin’ that you were so upset, and I was the reason. God, I’m so f**kin’ pathetic. I let my damn ego get in the way of everything. I let my friends dictate my actions, and put myself before you, more times then I care to admit. Again, I apologize. You’re probably never goin’ to forgive me for all that I’ve put you through, but I couldn’t let you go without tellin’ you that. When I’m done this you can tell me to leave, and I promise to respect that decision. I deserve to be kicked to the curb, and called more names that you’ve already chose for me. I’m everything you never wanted. Why I am even this close to you right now is beyond me.”