The Dark Tower (Page 40)

"What’s your when, ma’am?" Dinky asked her.

"My…?" Then she understood. "1964."

He sighed and shook his head. "So you don’t know about Jim Jones and the People’s Temple. It’s easier to explain if you know about that. Almost a thousand people committed suicide at this religious compound a Jesus-guy from San Francisco set up in Guyana. They drank poisoned Kool-Aid out of a tub while he watched them from the porch of his house and used a bullhorn to tell them stories about his mother."

Susannah was staring at him with horrified disbelief, Ted with poorly disguised impatience. Yet he must have thought something about this was important, because he held silence.

"Almost a thousand," Dinky reiterated. "Because they were confused and lonely and they thought Jim Jones was their friend. Because-dig it-they had nothing to go back to. And it’s like that here. If the Breakers united, tfiey could make a mental hammer that’d knock Prentiss and The Weasel and the taheen and the can-toi all the way into the next galaxy. Instead there’s no one but me, Stanley, and everyone’s favorite super-breaker, the totally eventual Mr. Theodore Brautigan of Milford, Connecticut.

Harvard Class of ’20, Drama Society, Debate Club, editor of The Crimson, and-of course!-Phi Beta Crapper."

"Can we trust you three?" Roland asked. The question sounded deceptively idle, little more than a time-passer.

"You have to," Ted said. ‘You’ve no one else. Neither do we."

"If we were on their side," Dinky said, "don’t you think we’d have something better to wear on our feet than moccasins made out of rubber f**kin tires? In Blue Heaven you get everything except for a few basics. Stuff you wouldn’t ordinarily think of as indispensable, but stuff that… well, it’s harder to take a powder when you’ve got nothing to wear but your Algul Siento slippers, let’s put it that way."

"I still can’t believe it,"Jake said. "All those people working to break the Beams, I mean. No offense, but-"

Dinky turned on him with his fists clenched and a tight, furious smile on his face. Oy immediately stepped in front of Jake, growling low and showing his teeth. Dinky either didn’t notice or paid no attention. ‘Yeah? Well guess what, kiddo? I take offense. I take offense like a motherfucker. What do you know about what it’s like to spend your whole life on the outside, to be the butt of the joke every time, to always be Carrie at the f**kin prom?"

"Who?" Eddie asked, confused, but Dinky was on a roll and paid no attention.

"There are guys down there who can’t walk or talk. One chick with no arms. Several with hydrocephalus, which means they have heads out to f**kin New Jersey." He held his hands two feet beyond his head on either side, a gesture they all took for exaggeration. Later they would discover it was not. "Poor old Stanley here, he’s one of the ones who can’t talk."

Roland glanced at Stanley, with his pallid, stubbly face and his masses of curly dark hair. And the gunslinger almost smiled.

"I think he can talk," he said, and then: "Do’ee bear your father’s name, Stanley? I believe thee does."

Stanley lowered his head, and color mounted in his cheeks, yet he was smiling. At the same time he began to cry again. Just what in the hell’s going on here? Eddie wondered.

Ted clearly wondered, too. "Sai Deschain, I wonder if I could ask-"

"No, no, cry pardon," Roland said. "Your time is short just now, so you said and we all feel it. Do the Breakers know how they’re being fed? What they’re being fed, to increase their powers?"

Ted abruptly sat on a rock and looked down at the shining steel cobweb of rails. "It has to do with the kiddies they bring through the Station, doesn’t it?"

"Yes."

"They don’t know and I don’t know," Ted said in that same heavy voice. "Not really. We’re fed dozens of pills a day. They come morning, noon, and night. Some are vitamins. Some are no doubt intended to keep us docile. I’ve had some luck purging those from my system, and Dinky’s, and Stanley’s.

Only… for such a purging to work, gunslinger, you must want it to work. Do you understand?"

Roland nodded.

"I’ve thought for a long time that they must also be giving us some kind of… I don’t know… brain-booster… but with so many pills, it’s impossible to tell which one it might be. Which one it is that makes us cannibals, or vampires, or both." He paused, looking down at the improbable sunray. He extended his hands on both sides. Dinky took one, Stanley the other.

"Watch this," Dinky said. "This is good."

Ted closed his eyes. So did the other two. For a moment there was nothing to see but three men looking out over the dark desert toward the Cecil B. DeMille sunbeam… and they were looking, Roland knew. Even with their eyes shut.

The sunbeam winked out. For a space of perhaps a dozen seconds the Devar-Toi was as dark as the desert, and Thunderclap Station, and the slopes of Steek-Tete. Then that absurd golden glow came back on. Dinky uttered a harsh (but not dissatisfied) sigh and stepped back, disengaging from Ted. A moment later, Ted let go of Stanley and turned to Roland.

"You did that?" the gunslinger asked.

"The three of us together," Ted said. "Mostly it’s Stanley. He’s an extremely powerful sender. One of the few things that terrify Prentiss and the low men and the taheen is when they lose their artificial sunlight. It happens more and more often, you know, and not always because we’re meddling with the machinery. The machinery is just…" He shrugged. "It’s running down."

"Everything is," Eddie said.

Ted turned to him, unsmiling. "But not fast enough, Mr. Dean. This fiddling with the remaining two Beams must stop, and very soon, or it will make no difference. Dinky, Stanley, and I will help you if we can, even if it means killing the rest of them."

"Sure," Dinky said with a hollow smile. "If the Rev. Jim Jones could do it, why not us?"

Ted gave him a disapproving glance, then looked back at Roland’s ka-tet. "Perhaps it won’t come to that. But if it does… "He stood up suddenly and seized Roland’s arm. "Are we cannibals?" he asked in a harsh, almost strident voice. "Have we been eating the children the Greencloaks bring from the Borderlands?"

Roland was silent.

Ted turned to Eddie. "I want to know."

Eddie made no reply.

"Madam-sai?" Ted asked, looking at the woman who sat astride Eddie’s hip. "We’re prepared to help you. Will you not help me by telling me what I ask?"

"Would knowing change anything?" Susannah asked.

Ted looked at her for a moment longer, then turned to Take. "You really could be my young friend’s twin," he said. "Do you know that, son?"

"No, but it doesn’t surprise me," Jake said. "It’s the way things work over here, somehow. Everything… um… fits."

"Will you tell me what I want to know? Bobby would."

So you can eat yourself alive? Jake thought. Eat yourself instead of them?

He shook his head. "I’m not Bobby," he said. "No matter how much I might look like him."

Ted sighed and nodded. ‘You stick together, and why would that surprise me? You’re ka-tet, after all."

"We gotta go," Dink told Ted. "We’ve already been here too long. It isn’t just a question of getting back for room-check; me n Stanley’ve got to trig their f**king telemetery so when Prentiss and The Wease check it they’ll say ‘Teddy B was there all the time. So was Dinky Earnshaw and Stanley Ruiz, no problem with those hoys.’"

"Yes," Ted agreed. "I suppose you’re right. Five more minutes?"

Dinky nodded reluctantly. The sound of a siren, made faint by distance, came on the wind, and the young man’s teeth showed in a smile of genuine amusement. "They get so upset when the sun goes in," he said. "When they have to face up to what’s really around them, which is some f**ked-up version of nuclear winter."

Ted put his hands in his pockets for a moment, looking down at his feet, then up at Roland. "It’s time that this… this grotesque comedy came to an end. We three will be back tomorrow, if all goes well. Meanwhile, there’s a bigger cave about forty yards down the slope, and on the side away from Thunderclap Station and Algul Siento. There’s food and sleeping bags and a stove that runs on propane gas. There’s a map, very crude, of the Algul. I’ve also left you a tape recorder and a number of tapes. They probably don’t explain everything you’d like to know, but they’ll fill in many of the blank spots. For now, just realize that Blue Heaven isn’t as nice as it looks. The ivy towers are watchtowers. There are three runs offence around the whole place. If you’re trying to get out from the inside, the first run you strike gives you a sting-"

"Like barbwire," Dink said.

"The second one packs enough of a wallop to knock you out," Ted went on. "And the third-"

"I think we get the picture," Susannah said.

"What about the Children of Roderick?" Roland asked.

"They have something to do with the Devar, for we met one on our way here who said so."

Susannah looked at Eddie with her eyebrows raised. Eddie gave her a tell-you-laterlook in return. It was a simple and perfect bit of wordless communication, the sort people who love each other take for granted.

"Those wanks," Dinky said, but not without sympathy.