Lost for You (Lost #2)(13)
Author: B.J. Harvey

I walk around to the side of the bed and lie her down in front of me, lying sideways across the mattress. I kneel down between her legs, grabbing her foot and pulling off her sneakers one by one. Kissing the instep of her foot, I graze her sole with my teeth, causing a shiver to travel up the entire length of her body. I lean forward to undo her jeans, carefully pulling them down, making sure to drag my fingers across her skin while I move them down her smooth legs. Once the jeans are off, I throw them to the floor and stand up, moving onto the bed and straddling her thighs while I lean over her. I can see her chest lifting and falling as she tries to control her breathing.

“You okay, sweetheart?”

“I will be.” She raises her hands to my face and rubs her thumb across my bottom lip. “I need to do more,” she says wantonly.

I nip her thumb with my teeth, and the gratifying moan she gives me amps up my growing desire. Pushing my body against hers, I make sure she can feel exactly what she is doing to me as I lean forward and kiss her again. Entwining my tongue with hers, I place my weight on my arm and move the back of my other hand down her neck to the swell of her breast.

“I need to touch you. I don’t want there to be anything between us when I make love to you,” I say as I sit back on my knees and slowly start to undo the buttons of her shirt, revealing her black lace bra and soft, velvety skin to me. My mouth moves down to suck her hard nipple through her bra, causing her back to arch and a loud moan to escape her mouth, the noise reverberating through me. I move to the other side, paying it the same respect with my mouth.

She sits up and leans on her elbows, giving me a look full of longing as I run my hands under the shoulders of her shirt. I drag it down her arms, one at a time, until she chucks her shirt in the same direction as her jeans.

I get a close up look of the scar on her right side; it is just below her last rib and runs half the length of that side. Still pink and slightly raised, but even my untrained eye can tell that it is healing well.

She watches me as I move my knees back to the floor between her legs, and pull her with me until her ass is resting on the edge of the bed in front of me.

“I need to do this.” I lower my mouth to her right side and gently trace a row of kisses along her scar. Elle’s body tenses at my first kiss, but then I feel her shiver as she realizes the significance of what I’m doing.

“Brax, I need you,” she pants as my mouth moves down towards her navel and the lace edge of her panties.

“I need you too, baby. I’ve dreamed of tasting you again.” I hook my fingers into the flimsy material around her hips and drag it away from her body, exposing her naked flesh in front of me.

I wrap my arms around her as I move my mouth slowly up her thighs, licking and kissing the skin as I go. Reaching the apex, I can’t hold back any longer. I have to devour her. I’ve been living with the memory of her body and her taste for far too long, and I’m gonna make damn sure she remembers exactly how much I love her with every kiss and every touch I make.

Her thighs clench underneath my hands as I bring her to climax, making her cry out my name as she comes apart under my tongue.

I lie down on the bed beside her, stroking her soft skin with my hand as she pulls me in to kiss her.

Knowing she can taste herself on my lips is so erotic, and I know I won’t last much longer if she keeps touching me.

She pulls away slightly, whispering to me against my lips, “I need you inside me, Brax,” as she pulls my t-shirt up and over my head. I slip my shoes off with my feet as I undo my jeans and pull them down with my boxers in one go.

Returning to the bed, I lie on my back and lift Elle over me so she is now sitting directly above me. She rubs herself back and forwards a few times, causing me to groan. “Elle,” I say through gritted teeth, “You’re gonna make me lose control.”

Realizing that I’m barely holding on, she lifts up and brings herself down on me, taking me deep inside her. She starts rocking against me, and I feel my climax build instantaneously as I match her rhythm. She tightens around me, and we both speed up, matching our thrusts measure for measure until she clenches me, and I fall over the edge, moaning her name as I come inside her.

She collapses on my chest and we lie there, catching our breath, relishing the moment. She lifts up and lies back down beside me, curling her body into mine, our legs tangled together.

“Just lie with me,” she says quietly.

“Always.” I move us around and pull the covers back, moving to put our heads on the pillows. I kiss her head as she snuggles into my side. “Sleep, baby,” I murmur as she sighs in contentment.

This is what I’ve been wanting, craving for the past month. I know the time will come when I have to tell her why I left and how I came to be in her life. And I will tell her, I’ll tell her the whole damn thing.

Never again will she doubt the depth of my love for her, not even for a second.

I wake up a few hours later feeling restless but still bone tired. I can feel Brax curled up behind me, making cute little snores in my ear. Who could have thought snoring could be cute, but this is Brax we’re talking about. I roll onto my back, relishing the cocoon Brax has me in. Just having him near me makes me feel safe. Knowing he’s back, and for good this time, fills the gaping hole he made when he left so suddenly three weeks ago.

I still need to know where he went and why. Was it something I did? Did I scare him off somehow?

That last phone call we had, I remember him telling me he had to leave to keep me safe and that it was the only way. How is that possible? How could leaving me alone and exposed make me safer? Thank god that creeper in the black Honda has disappeared. The last time I saw it was the Friday that I was shot.

I sit up suddenly, my back rigid.

Brax wakes up startled. “What is it, babe? Are you okay?”

“The guy in the black Honda. I saw him the day I got shot.” I turn around and look down at him, my eyes wide open in shock.

“Are you sure, hon?” he asks, moving to sit up against the headboard.

I nod my head. “Absolutely! I didn’t want to leave the apartment because I wanted to be here if you came back, but that day I had to go to the grocery store and swing by the campus to get some library books. I first saw him parked outside the grocery store, then again outside campus. He took off as soon as I spotted him both times.”

“Do you think it was him that broke in?” he asks cautiously.

I pause to think about it. “I’m not sure. He’s been hanging around and following me for a while now. I know I should’ve dealt with it sooner, but I had you and I thought he’d give up.”