White lies (Page 22)

To her surprise, she had to stop and count the days. She had become so involved with him that time had ceased to mean anything, and it was difficult to recall. "Three weeks."

"Then I have three more weeks in these casts?"

"I think so, yes."

"All right." He said it as if giving his permission, and she felt that he would give them three weeks and not one day longer, or he would take the casts off himself. He lifted his left arm. "I’m minus a couple of needles today. They took the IVs out about an hour ago."

"I hadn’t even noticed!" she exclaimed, smiling a little at the note of pride in his ruined voice. She wondered if she would ever get used to its harshness, but at the same time tiny shivers went down her spine every time she heard it.

"And I refused the pain medication. I want my head clear. There were a lot of questions I wanted to ask before, but it took so much time and effort, and my brain was so foggy from the drugs, that it was just too much trouble. Now I want to know what’s going on. Where am I? I’ve heard you call the doctor Major, so I know I’m in a military hospital. The question is, why?"

"You’re in Bethesda," she said.

"A naval hospital?" Astonishment roughened his voice even more.

"Frank said you were brought here for security reasons. There are guards posted at every entrance to this wing. And this was a central location for all the surgeons they pulled in for you."

"Major Lunning isn’t navy," he said sharply.

"No." It was astonishing that he could lose the most basic of memories, those of himself, yet retain the knowledge that Bethesda was a naval hospital and that major wasn’t a navy rank. She watched the stillness of his mouth as he studied the implications of what she had just told him.

"Then someone with a lot of influence wanted me here. Langley, probably."

"Who?"

"Company headquarters, baby. CIA." She felt a chill of dread as he continued, "Maybe the White House, but Langley is the most likely bet. What about Frank Payne?"

"He’s FBI. I trust him," she said steadily.

"Damn, this is getting deep," he muttered. "All these different departments and military branches coordinating just isn’t normal. What’s going on? Tell me about the explosion."

"Didn’t Frank tell you?"

"I didn’t ask for or volunteer any information. I didn’t know him."

Yes, that was like Steve. He had always held back, watching cautiously, though she had already married him before she began noticing that particular trait. He used his charm like a shield, so that most people would have described him as outgoing and spontaneous, when in fact he was just the opposite. He had held people away, not trusting them and not allowing anyone close to him, but they never noticed, because he was such an actor. Now she sensed that the shield was gone. People could take him as he was or leave him; he didn’t care. It was a hard attitude, but she found that she liked it better. It was real, without pretense or subterfuge. And for the first time, he was letting her get close to him. He needed her, trusted her. Perhaps it was only because of the extenuating circumstances, but it was happening, and it stunned her.

"Jay?" he prompted.

"I don’t know exactly what happened," she explained. "I don’t know why you were there. They don’t know either."

"Who is ‘they’?"

"Frank. The FBI."

"And whoever else he’s working for," he added dryly. "Go on."

"Frank told me that you weren’t doing anything illegal that they know of. Perhaps you were only an innocent bystander, but you have a reputation for sniffing out trouble, and they think you might know something about what happened to their operation. They had set up a sting, or whatever you want to call it, but someone had planted a bomb at the meeting site. You were the only survivor."

"What kind of sting?"

"I don’t know. All Frank has said is that it involved national security."

"And they’re afraid their guy’s cover was blown, but they don’t know, because the players on the other side were disintegrated, too," he said, as if to himself. "It could have been a double double-cross, and the bomb was meant for the others. Damn! No wonder they want me to get my memory back! But all that doesn’t explain one thing. Why are you involved?"

"They brought me here to identify you," she said, absently stroking his arm as she had for so many hours.

"Identify me? Didn’t they know?"

"Not for certain. Part of your driver’s license was found, but they still weren’t certain if you were… you, or their agent. Apparently you and the agent were about the same height and weight, and your hands were burned, so they weren’t able to get your fingerprints for identification." She paused as something nagged at her memory, but she couldn’t bring the elusive detail into focus. For a moment it was close; then Steve’s next question splintered her concentration.

"Why did they ask you? Wasn’t there anyone else who could identify me? Or did we stay close after our divorce?"

"No, we didn’t. It was the first tune I’d seen you in five years. You’ve always been pretty much a loner. You weren’t the type for bosom buddies. And you don’t have any family, so that left me."

He moved restlessly, his mouth drawing into a hard line as he uttered a brief, explicit curse. "I’m trying to get a handle on this," he said tersely. "And I keep running into this damned blank wall. Some of what you tell me seems so familiar, and I think, yeah, that’s me. Then part of it is as if you’re telling me about some stranger, and I wonder if I really know. Hell, how can I know?" he finished with raw frustration.