Melt for You (Page 68)

He picks me up in his arms like it’s the most natural thing in the world and heads back into the bedroom.

Staring at his profile, I whisper, “Why are you naked?”

“I sleep naked.”

“You were asleep?”

“No. Now shut up.”

“Are you still mad at me?”

“Yes. Now shut up.”

I shut up. He tosses me onto the bed like luggage. I bounce, breathless, and try to sit up, but he isn’t having any of my smart ideas. He pushes me down and kisses me, hard, a knee wedged between my legs and his fingers twisted in my hair.

I melt like butter into the mattress.

“I’m kickin’ you out after,” he says, breathing raggedly and pushing my skirt up my thighs. He drags my panties down my legs. “And don’t you dare ask me any personal questions.”

Oh, he’s so mad at me. He’s furious. God, that’s a turn-on.

He doesn’t bother taking off my shirt and bra or getting me ready with foreplay—not that I need it, since I drenched my underwear the minute I saw him—he simply sheathes his erection in a condom and angrily shoves it inside me.

I arch and moan and fall in love with him a little bit more.

He fucks me hard. Like he’s trying to prove a point. I clamp my fingers into his biceps and wrap my legs around his back and hold on for the ride. When I’m moaning and panting and just about there, he slows, growls “not yet,” and kisses my throat.

“Please, Cam,” I whimper, grinding my pelvis against his, desperate for release.

Then I’m on top of him, flipped around and straddling his face, manhandled into the position he wants me, his hard cock jutting inches from my mouth.

He commands, “Suck,” and buries his face between my legs.

I gasp and buck, shocked when his tongue plunges deep inside me. He spreads both hands over my bottom and makes a meal of me, licking and sucking until I can’t catch my breath.

I get a warning smack on my ass when I leave him unattended too long.

I wrap my hand around his shaft but stop before taking him into my mouth. I don’t fancy a mouthful of latex, thank you, so I roll the condom up his length and toss it, then take the engorged crown of his cock between my lips.

He sucks in a breath, then lets it out as a moan that vibrates all the way through me. My eyes literally roll back into my head. I lick his erection from base to tip, tonguing over the veins and thrilling when he throbs in my hands. Then I start a rhythm, sucking and stroking, faster and faster, his tongue working between my legs until I think I’ll pass out.

Cam digs a hand into my hair and pulls, making his cock pop out of my mouth. “Wait,” he pants, gasping for air. “Fuck. Wait.”

We’re frozen like that for several moments, until he regains control of himself. Then he presses the gentlest kiss right onto my clit. When I shudder, he laughs, a dark, satisfied sound that thrills me like nothing I’ve ever known. But I’m not about to be outdone, so I swirl my tongue around the head of his cock and am rewarded by a groan that could win a porn Oscar.

Then it becomes a game of who comes first. Also known as a win-win.

We go back and forth, slowly, taking turns. First he licks and suckles me for a moment, then stops as I lick and suckle him. When I cheat and begin to languidly stroke his balls, he cheats by slipping a finger under my bra and tweaking my throbbing nipple. I take him down my throat, all the way to his base, and he slides two fingers inside me and circles them.

When my entire body is shaking and I’m sweating and cross-eyed, I break first.

“I need to come, Cam.”

“So come.” He goes back to licking.

“Come with me.”

“Like this, or . . . ?”

I’m glad he asked, because suddenly I’m needing eye contact. This game is incredibly hot, but I’m craving more—I’m craving him. I want to go over the edge looking into his eyes.

Damn. I knew I was gonna regret this.

I climb off him, get another condom from the bedside table, and get him all wrapped up. Feeling satisfied with my technique, I smile at his erection.

Cam grabs my arms and flips me over so I’m on my back, looking up at him. Easing between my legs, he says gruffly, “Is this want you wanted?”

I nod, biting my lip against a moan. He slides inside me, and God, it’s good.

But he doesn’t go fast and hard again. He goes achingly slow, cupping my bottom in one hand, cradling my head in the other, propped up on an elbow and staring down into my eyes.

Swamped with emotion, I inhale a hitching breath. He smiles, but it’s achingly sad.

“Go ahead, luv,” he murmurs. “Tell me it doesn’t matter. Tell me it’s all a mistake.”

I have to turn my face away because I don’t want him to see the tears gathering in my eyes. When I finally do go over the edge, he’s right there with me, groaning my name and twitching inside me, carving his name into my heart the way Michael never did.

So this is love. Man, it’s even worse than Christmas.

THIRTY-FOUR

The mechanics of love go something like this:

Birdsong in the air and your heart in his kiss,

Eyes meet, breath catches, a sparkle of lust

A pulse of pure joy and an aching you must

Pursue against logic; that small voice in your mind

Warns of goblins and trapdoors and things you might find

Your beloved will do that will irk and grow boring

Like farting and lateness and that god-awful snoring.

But your heart insists on its impossible dream

Until one day you wake to find a terrible scream

Trapped in your throat with nowhere to go

And you think back on that time which seems so long ago

When your love was a bird, flying high on the wing

Not this dry little crust of a shriveled-up thing.

“Well, that’s one for the Romance Hall of Fame,” I say aloud, examining with alarm the poem I’ve just completed. It’s not even a proper sonnet, just a bunch of depressing rhyming verses that could be handed out as warnings to couples in premarriage counseling. Here, see what you have to look forward to? Do you really want to sign up for this?

I scratch a big X through the whole thing and slam my sonnet book closed.

It’s January 2, the day after New Year’s. Tomorrow I go back to work to get fired for being the office slut, which is really unfair considering when it came time to earn my title, I opted out. Only it didn’t look like I did, which is all that matters.

Also tomorrow, Cam leaves for Scotland. Every night since he gave me the key, I’ve been going over to his place for some hot, angry sex and leaving feeling a little worse than the day before.

We’re not talking, except to discuss which position we should switch to next. We’re not working out together. We’re not having dinner together. We’ve been reduced to the worst of all possible worlds—fuck buddies, without the buddies part.

The sex is incredible, but I really miss my friend. I miss laughing with him. I miss everything.

It’s my fault. I know it’s all my fault. I slipped and fell on his magical dick and ruined everything.

I’m too depressed to even look through the help wanted ads. Nobody ever finds a job like that, anyway. I spend a number of hours dejectedly browsing through online recruitment sites but inevitably end up opening a bottle of wine and attempting to drown my sorrows. Spoiler: it doesn’t work.

At four o’clock in the afternoon, I’m on my third glass of wine when the phone rings. I don’t answer it because it’s either my mother . . . or it’s my mother. Michael hasn’t tried to contact me at all. No emailed apology, no “Oops, I was drunk” text, no nothing.