Shades of Twilight (Page 4)
Roanna sighed. She always felt clumsy, fumbling around under Grandmother’s eagle eye. The only time she wasn’t clumsy was when she was on a horse. Well, she had fallen off Thunderbolt, but she was used to her pony and Thunderbolt was so fat she hadn’t been able to get a good grip with her legs. But usually she stuck to the saddle like a cocklebur, that’s what Loyal always said, and he took care of all Grandmother’s horses so he should know. Roanna loved riding almost as much as she had loved Mama and Daddy. The upper part of her felt like she was flying, but with her legs she could feel the horse’s strength and muscles, as if she was that strong. That was one good part about living with Grandmother; she would be able to ride every day, and Loyal could teach her how to stay on the bigger horses.
But the best part was that Webb and his mama lived here, too, and she’d see him every day.
Suddenly she jumped down from the window seat and raced through the house, forgetting that she was wearing her slick-soled Sunday shoes instead of her sneakers until she skidded on the hardwood floor and almost slid into a table. Aunt Gloria’s sharp admonition rang in the air behind her, but Roanna ignored it as she wrestled with the heavy front door, using all of her slight weight to tug it open enough that she could slip through. Then she was running across the lawn toward Webb and Jessie, her knees kicking up the skirt of her dress with every step.
Halfway there the knot of misery in her chest suddenly unwound, and she began sobbing. Webb watched her coming, and his expression changed. He let go of Jessie’s hand and held his arms out to Roanna. She hurled herself into his lap, setting the swing to bumping. Jessie said sharply, "You’re making a mess, Roanna. Go blow your nose."
But Webb said, "Here’s my handkerchief," and wiped Roanna’s face himself. Then he simply held her, her face buried against his shoulder, while she sobbed so violently that her entire little body heaved.
"Oh, God," Jessie said in disgust.
"Shut up," Webb replied, holding Roanna closer.
"She’s lost her parents."
"Well, I lost my mama, too," Jessie pointed out.
"You don’t see me squalling all over everybody."
"She’s just seven," Webb said while he smoothed Roanna’s tousled mop of hair. She was a pest most of the time, tagging along after her older cousins, but she was just a little kid, and he thought Jessie should be more sympathetic. The late afternoon sun slanted across the lawn and through the trees, catching in Roanna’s hair and highlighting the glossy chestnut, making the strands glitter with gold and red. Earlier in the afternoon they had buried three members of their family, Roanna’s parents and Jessie’s mother. Aunt Lucinda had suffered the most, he thought, because she had lost both of her children at once: David, Roanna’s daddy, and Janet, Jessie’s mama. The huge weight of grief had bowed her down under the past three days, but it hadn’t broken her. She was still the backbone of the family, lending her strength to others.
Roanna was quieting down, her sobs dwindling into occasional hiccups. Her round little head bounced against his collarbone as, without looking up, she scrubbed her face with his handkerchief. She felt frail in his strong young arms, her bones not much bigger than matchsticks, her back only about nine inches wide. Roanna was skinny, all pipe stem arms and legs, and small for her age. He kept patting her while Jessie wore a long-suffering expression, and eventually one slanted, tear-wet eye peeped out from the security of his shoulder.
"Grandmother said that Jessie and I are going to live here, too," she said.
"Well, of course," Jessie replied, as if any other place would be unacceptable.
"Where else would I live? But if I were them, I’d send you to the Orphans’ Home."
Tears welled in that eye again and Roanna promptly reburied her face in Webb’s shoulder. He glared at Jessie, and she flushed and looked away. Jessie was spoiled. Lately, at least half the time he thought she needed a good spanking. The other half of the time he was enthralled by those new curves to her body. She knew it, too. Once this summer, when they were swimming, she had let the strap of her bathing suit top fall down her arm, baring the upper part of one breast almost to the nipple. Webb’s body had reacted with all the painful intensity of recent adolescence, but he hadn’t been able to look away. He had just stood there, thanking God that the water was higher than his waist, but the part of him that had been above water had been dark red with mingled embarrassment, arousal, and frustration.
But she was beautiful. God, Jessie was beautiful. She looked like a princess, with her sleek dark hair and dark blue eyes. Her features were perfect, her skin flawless. And now she would be living here at Davencourt with Aunt Lucinda … and with him.
He returned his attention to Roanna, jostling her.
"Don’t listen to Jessie," he said.
"She’s just spouting off without knowing what she’s talking about. You won’t ever have to go anywhere. I don’t think there are any orphanages anymore."
She peeked out again. Her eyes were brown, almost chestnut colored like her hair, just without the red. She was the only person on either the Davenport or Tallant sides of the family who had brown eyes; everyone else had either blue or green eyes or a mixture of the two. Jessie had teased her once, telling her that she wasn’t really a Davenport because her eyes were the wrong color, that she’d been adopted. Roanna had been in tears until Webb had put a stop to that, too, telling her that she had her mother’s eyes,
and he knew she was a Davenport because he remembered going to see her in the hospital nursery when she’d just been born.
"Was Jessie just teasing?" she asked now.
"That’s all it was," he replied soothingly.