Zane & Lucky’s First Christmas (Forever Love #3.5)(24)
Author: J.S. Cooper

“Oh Sidney.” I laughed, feeling less overwhelmed. “You always know what to say to make me feel better.”

“Cheer up, Buttercup. Life could be a lot worse.”

“I know.” I smiled into the phone. “You wouldn’t know it from our conversation right now, but I’m really happy. Really, really happy.”

“Good, that’s more like it.”

“I need your help, Sidney.” I whispered, scared that Zane was going to walk into the room and catch me. “I really want to find the letter Zane’s mother wrote to him before she passed away. I want to give it to him as a wedding present.”

“What a wonderful idea.” His voice was warm. “How can I help?”

“I need the phone number for the detective that tracked down his mom for Noah.”

“Sure, hold on. Talking about Noah, when are you guys coming over?”

“We were just talking about that. I was hoping next week.”

“That will work. Hold on, please, Lucky.” I heard Sidney place the phone down and I thought about what I had just told him. I hadn’t realized how badly stressed I was, until I had said everything to Sidney on the phone. I knew that I needed to talk to Zane about how I felt. ‘You still there?”

“Yes, Sidney.”

“Here’s the number. You tell him how important the letter is, you hear?” Sidney’s voice was gruff. “And be wary, Lucky, I know Zane seems strong, but he’s still just a man, a mere mortal like the rest of us. I have a feeling that this is a really trying time for him. So much has gone on in his life recently, I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s trying to figure out how to cope with it all right now.”

“Thanks, Sidney. I have thought about that. Me, Noah, the news about his mom, the babies. I’m sure it’s a lot of information for him to digest.”

“It’s a lot of heady information. Better men than him have cracked under the pressure of everything. But, he’ll be fine.”

“I hope so.”

“I know so, he has you, Lucky. He has all he needs to get through it all. Now, I’m more worried about Noah.”

“Noah?” I frowned. “Why?”

“Because he doesn’t have a support system like you and Zane. He has Zane and he has me, and he has you. But he doesn’t have a life partner.”

“Well, he kinda has Robin.”

“Right now, his relationship with Robin is up in the air. That can go either way. She’s a good girl, but she has issues. I don’t know what’s going to happen there.”

“Is that what you thought about me, Sidney?” I teased him.

“No,” His voice was warm again. “I knew right away that you and Zane were made for each other. Any fool on Earth can see it.”

“Aww, thanks, Sidney.”

“Don’t thank me.” He laughed. “Thank God that you both found each other.”

“I will. And I’ll send a prayer up that this detective can find Zane’s mom’s letter.”

“That would be the best present he could receive.”

“Thanks, Sidney. Can’t wait to see you next week.”

“I can’t wait to see you both as well.” And with that he hung up. I lay back on the bed and burrowed my head in Zane’s pillow and breathed in his smell. How I delighted in his musky masculine scent, I swear that his smell alone could turn me on.

“Missing me?” Zane opened the door and I stared up at him as he grinned at me.

“No.” I blushed, embarrassed to have been caught devouring his pillow with my nose.

“Liar.”

“I don’t lie.”

“What’s that, Pinocchio?”

“Ass.”

“I’m the ass, you love.”

“Come here,” I sat up in the bed and motioned him over to me. “Make sure you lock the door.”

“Lock the door?” His eyes gleamed at me. “Is this what I think it is?”

“If you’re thinking you’re about to get morning sex, then yes.”

“Hallelujah.” He jumped onto the bed and pulled me towards him. “Bedroom sex is better than car sex any day of the week.”

“You say that now.”

“We’ll try again in a different car.”

“More like when I’m not pregnant, as well.”

“That is a good idea. I do want to keep my balls, in case I want to get you pregnant again.”

“Let’s pop out these twins before we talk about any more babies.”

“I can wear a condom, if you want?”

“It’s a bit late for that.” I giggled as he kissed my face and rubbed his nose against mine.

“I’m excited, you know.” He stared into my eyes. “I can’t believe we’re going to be parents.”

“I know, I’m excited as well.”

“I wanted to make sure you’re okay with everything. I know we kind of rushed everything. Well, I did. I know you wanted to finish school and then go and get your PhD and here you are, having to take more time off of school and you’re about to become a mother and a wife and now you’re also looking after my brother and his daughter. And, well, I know it has to be overwhelming and I didn’t want us to rush into any of this. I hope you’re not mad at me.”

“Mad at you?” I shook my head and stroked the side of his face. “How could I be mad at you, Zane? I love you. You’ve brought so much light and happiness into my life. I wouldn’t trade anything in my life. I love everything about this crazy family we have.”

“I’m scared, you know.” He laid next to me on the bed and pulled me towards him. “I’m scared you’re going to resent me. Everything has been so rushed between us, I don’t want you to think I’m trying to trap you to me. I love you with everything in my heart and soul, and sometimes I don’t wonder if subconsciously I’m doing everything in my power to make it so that you never leave me.”

“I would never leave you, Zane.” My heart broke at the pain in his eyes as he spoke. “You’re my everything.”

“I know, but sometimes I feel like I couldn’t live if you weren’t in my life, Lucky. You’re the blood running through my veins. You’re the air in my lungs. You’re my reason for waking up in the morning. You’re my everything, and I don’t want you to feel like you’re trapped with me.”