Black House (Page 67)

Jack’s third and most troubling thought, withheld until now and purely that of an experienced policeman, causes him to say, "I’d like to talk to your wife. If you’re planning on visiting her tomorrow, would you mind if I came along?"

Dale blinks and says, "Maybe we should talk about this."

"Do you think it would do some good?"

"It might," Jack says.

"Seeing you might do her some good, anyhow," Fred says. "Don’t you live in Norway Valley? That’s on the way to Arden. I can pick you up about nine."

"Jack," Dale says.

"See you at nine," Jack says, ignoring the signals of mingled distress and anger emanating from his friend, also the little voice that whispers

( feather).

"Amazing," says Henry Leyden. "I don’t know whether to thank you or congratulate you. Both, I suppose. It’s too late in the game to make ‘bitchrod,’ like me, but I think you could have a shot at ‘dope.’ "

"Don’t lose your head. The only reason I went down there was to keep the boy’s father from coming to my house."

"That wasn’t the only reason."

"You’re right. I was feeling sort of edgy and hemmed in. I felt like getting out, changing the scenery."

"But there was also another reason."

"Henry, you are hip-deep in pigshit, do you know that? You want to think I acted out of civic duty, or honor, or compassion, or altruism, or something, but I didn’t. I don’t like having to say this, but I’m a lot less good-hearted and responsible than you think I am."

" ‘Hip-deep in pigshit’? Man, you are absolutely on the money. I have been hip-deep in pigshit, not to mention chest-deep and even chin-deep in pigshit, most of my life."

"Nice of you to admit it."

"However, you misunderstand me. You’re right, I do think you are a good, decent person. I don’t just think it, I know it. You’re modest, you’re compassionate, you’re honorable, you’re responsible — no matter what you think of yourself right now. But that wasn’t what I was talking about."

"What did you mean, then?"

"The other reason you decided to go to the police station is connected to this problem, this concern, whatever it is, that’s been bugging you for the past couple of weeks. It’s like you’ve been walking around under a shadow."

"Huh," Jack said.

"This problem, this secret of yours, takes up half your attention, so you’re only half present; the rest of you is somewhere else. Sweetie, don’t you think I can tell when you’re worried and preoccupied? I might be blind, but I can see."

"Okay. Let’s suppose that something has been on my mind lately. What could that have to do with going to the station house?"

"There are two possibilities. Either you were going off to confront it, or you were fleeing from it."

Jack does not speak.

"All of which suggests that this problem has to do with your life as a policeman. It could be some old case coming back to haunt you. Maybe a psychotic thug you put in jail was released and is threatening to kill you. Or, hell, I’m completely full of shit and you found out you have liver cancer and a life expectancy of three months."

"I don’t have cancer, at least as far as I know, and no ex-con wants to kill me. All of my old cases, most of them, anyway, are safely asleep in the records warehouse of the LAPD. Of course, something has been bothering me lately, and I should have expected you to see that. But I didn’t want to, I don’t know, burden you with it until I managed to figure it out for myself."

"Tell me one thing, will you? Were you going toward it, or running away?"

"There’s no answer to that question."

"We shall see. Isn’t the food ready by now? I’m starving, literally starving. You cook too slow. I would have been done ten minutes ago."

"Hold your horses," Jack says. "Coming right up. The problem is this crazy kitchen of yours."

"Most rational kitchen in America. Maybe in the world."

After ducking out of the police station quickly enough to avoid a useless conversation with Dale, Jack had yielded to impulse and called Henry with the offer of making dinner for both of them. A couple of good steaks, a nice bottle of wine, grilled mushrooms, a big salad. He could pick up everything they needed in French Landing. Jack had cooked for Henry on three or four previous occasions, and Henry had prepared one stupendously bizarre dinner for Jack. (The housekeeper had taken all the herbs and spices off their rack to wash it, and she had put everything back in the wrong place.) What was he doing in French Landing? He’d explain that when he got there. At eight-thirty he had pulled up before Henry’s roomy white farmhouse, greeted Henry, and carried the groceries and his copy of Bleak House into the kitchen. He had tossed the book to the far end of the table, opened the wine, poured a glass for his host and one for himself, and started cooking. He’d had to spend several minutes reacquainting himself with the eccentricities of Henry’s kitchen, in which objects were not located by kind — pans with pans, knives with knives, pots with pots — but according to what sort of meal required their usage. If Henry wanted to whip up a grilled trout and some new potatoes, he had only to open the proper cabinet to find all the necessary utensils. These were arranged in four basic groups (meat, fish, poultry, and vegetables), with many subgroups and subsubgroups within each category. The filing system confounded Jack, who often had to peer into several widely separated realms before coming upon the frying pan or spatula he was looking for. As Jack chopped, wandered the shelves, and cooked, Henry had laid the table in the kitchen with plates and silverware and sat down to quiz his troubled friend.